Have to rid my life of this for good

I'm 33, happily married and have a new daughter.
I started with porn by finding my dad's playboys in junior high, we got internet while I was in high school and I started very mildly with internet porn then but was using mostly late night cable movies and magazines. It wasn't til my senior year of college when I got my own laptop did I really start in heavily with internet porn. I don't really remember it being a real problem until about 5 years ago, that's when I realized the cravings were very strong and often I would be thinking about and anticipating going home at the end of the day to look at porn, or I would be scheming how I could get some time alone to PMO. Often I would rather watch porn than have sex with my wife, even though she is very attractive and we had a good sex life. I know now that it has affected negatively every aspect of life. it has affected my health, I would skip workouts and even not eat because I was looking at porn, it has affected my job which is high stress and requires study and work outside that I would often skip because I was looking at porn. Lastly and most worrisome, it has damaged my relationships. I would not go out with friends because I started a porn session. I know it has affected the way I look at and treat my wife. I would catch myself getting angry at her or starting a fight for no reason, but the truth is that she is an angel to me. Porn made me look at her and other women as objects for sex and nothing else. My kid is only a few months old and I hope hasn't had many negative affects as a result of my porn use, but she is just one more great reason to get rid of this forever. I want to be a better man for the people in my life and am tired of being a slave to this.

I've been trying to stop PMO for the past two years and have managed a streak of 70 days that ended a couple of months ago. I started my nofap journey after finding YBOP youtube series while ironically looking for porn type videos. I would often spend hours initially looking at sites like youtube for porn or nudes then would continue to escalate to harder pornography. Often it would eat up much of my day especially when I was home by myself. Despite having many other things that I needed to do with my day. I just had another relapse yesterday and wasted more than five hours looking at porn and masturbating. I feel like total shit now. I seem to always be coming back to this crap in moments of weakness. It keeps dragging me back in. I feel like I am on the cusp but just need to break free for good. My goal is to make it to 90 days and then quit porn forever. I appreciate any assistance or help anyone can offer.

 

Thanks for the encouragement! This is the end of day one, went well but was with the family all day so no real opportunity to slip up.