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Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by ProtagonistOfMyLife, Feb 12, 2019.
And if yes, have they vanished or weakened after rebooting?
Yes, i went through a lot. First it was rough/violent sex, then interracial then cuckold then IR cuckold then mild femdom like the woman demanding i creampie her etc then facials and last pov. So it was like escalation, then peak, then de-escalation the more i stepped away from PMO.
Worst was IR cuckold even if in real life i would never ever never ever over my dead body allow for such a thing and i'd probably beat the guy to near death for even touching my gf/wife. I was picturing myself as the bull but it was impossible since that one is usually a black dude.
I swear porn makers are some evil and degenerate people and this really feels like a mind control experiment. or at the very least they are mentally disturbed. Cuckold and especially IR cuckold basically didn't even exist 5 years ago, let alone 10-15 years ago.
They all vanished when I stopped masturbating and stopped sex fantasizing.
That's reassuring, thanks.
Just as follow up, they didn't just vanish, i find most repulsive now, so even if i watch i don't get aroused at all, just disgusted. So that's 2x better, i don't have to actively avoid them, they are not triggering anymore. Triggering as in "if i see them i get aroused and/or have the urge to masturbate". They literally kill my arousal/boner now.
Alright so I have abstained for 23 days now. I've peeked at pics for maybe like 20 seconds total out of the entire weeks I've quit. I have the control to not end up watching anything or edging or relapsing, but how do I simply stop myself from peeking or fantasizing. Sometimes it's unbelievably hard to stop fantasizing and although I don't relapse and it doesn't cause anything, I do get aroused and I definitely these things put together are hurting my reboot. Any tips?
It's a big step that so many refuse to make... to accept that sex fantasizing IS watching porn and peeking... no matter if you fantasize about a pstar or just a hot woman you saw on the street or even your gf. They are not real, they are actors in your fantasy.
When you accept this it will get easier.
Also accepting that masturbation is abnormal and unnatural helps a lot.
Dude fantasizing is in essence just 'replaying the p0rn you have watched at inside of your mind'. It will strenghten and activate the excatly same neurological pathways used when PMOing, which in essence mean you make 0 progress. Because those pathways that make you addicted need to be ignored and left alone in order for them to grow weaker and then finally, wither.
Okay but it's not for long, usually in a public place where I can't act on it at all, and I've only fantasized like 4 times this reboot.
What the hell can I do about it though? The more I tell myself not to think about it, the more my brain thinks about it, naturally
Definitely. I am a straight guy. But all of a sudden I saw a transgender man, who was looking like a fine hot chic. I got so aroused, I was like damn it, I can´t realize that this was a man. I forget that this was a man before. Of course I don´t watch those transgenders with a dick, only liked that post op transgender girls. Damn, it is scary what todays docs can do. Really damn scary. They even have voice like a real girl and a soft skin like a real girl. How is that possible ? Imagine you marry a girl who has a fine made pussy, but then you find out that she was a man before. My whole world would fall apart.
I was scared that I might be gay, but this can´t be the case, because I find transgender with dicks disgusting.
Still a horrific fetish.
But I lost it today, I don´t watch transgender stuff anymore, it was just there for a short time, but I am glad that fetish kinda disappeared from my mind.
Porn is to me one of the most dangerous drugs. Even Gary Wilson says in his book "Your Brain on Porn", it is easier to stop smoking or stop taking drugs, than to stop porn.
Yeah? The same goes for oversensitive NPCs.
It's not easy for them....not realizing they're staring in the mirror when they see "nazis."
On one of my past attempts, I looked up some of the old crap I use to be into (after about 7 days in) and I was REALLY disgusted by it.
I don't care about that. I just wish that people wouldn't put their political beliefs on this site. If a hetero has HOCD and says something "insensitive" about homosexuals it's not users business to police that. We have a community policy and moderators to make these decisions. If you find it's grossly deviating from the community guidelines, simply report it and put on your man-pants, is what I would say to such a person.
in what way?
It just made me cringe. It seemed so strange to me that I was into something that I now found gross. I wasn't into it at all, anymore. I ended up going to something more "normal" instead.