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Have You Ever Overcome an Addiction?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by thestonedkoala, Aug 4, 2015.

  1. thestonedkoala

    thestonedkoala Fapstronaut

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    I wanted to make this thread to tell my story on my battle with video game addiction, and what it has taught me going into my battle to quit porn.

    When I was growing up through elementary school I was an avid basketball player. I played all of the time and when I became old enough to play travel ball, I was placed on the "A" squad (which was the best team possible) and was easily one of the best players. In about 5th-6th grade I was introduced to a game called RuneScape. I enjoyed the game and played it a fair bit, but my parents always limited my time and would refuse to buy me memberships. Anyways, when I wasn't playing this game I was thinking about it. I would sneak out of my room at night to play it. It was getting bad and its effect became clear. All of a sudden my basketball performance suffered and I skipped the next year of tryouts. I still said I wanted to play, so I was placed on the B team instead of the A team. I should've easily been the best player on that team, but I wasn't. In fact, I rode the bench. The next year I was so frustrated I chose not to play at all and continued playing RuneScape.

    Now I wasn't playing any sports and my time was consumed by a stupid online game. Eventually I became hooked on Call of Duty. My freshman year of high school I lived on Call of Duty. I was a smart kid yet my grades suffered and I was sent to counseling and study help classes. I finished that year with below a 2.0 GPA. The next year I got really into RuneScape again, and once again, my grades were poor. Not as poor as my freshman year, but still not good. I spent my whole sophomore year running an online gaming clan and would stay up all night, even on school nights, to play this game.

    This was also the year that I started watching porn and masturbated for the first time. Man I didn't know what I was missing out on and it became a regular every night thing. I used to get ridiculous erections to porn and I wish I knew what kind of harm I was causing cause I'd go back in time and kick the crap outta myself.

    Anyways, the next year of school came and I got into working out. I was insanely skinny before this and soon became really interested in the gym. I stopped playing video games so much and was now starting to put on some muscle. I also got a 4.0 GPA this year. It was great but I had developed social anxieties and didn't have much of a social life. Regardless, I was still watching a lot of porn at this time in my life.

    Senior year of high school came and for the first time in a long time I started to become more social. I had my first girlfriend since middle school and this was also the first time I realized that I couldn't get an erection to have sex. I would've never thought it was because of porn and instead blamed anxieties...

    So I carried on with porn and would use it every night to put myself to sleep. I also relapsed on my video gaming addictions. It was now with GTA and about a month after I realized my social life and motivation was going away, I unplugged my PS3 and gave it away. I haven't had one since.

    I'm now about to be a sophomore in college and have relapsed on RuneScape twice for about a month-two months before I realized I had a problem again. I've since given my account away and vow never to get caught up in video games again. I haven't been as frequent of a porn user either anymore, but my entire first year of college and even til now I've struggled to get erections for sex. I've recently that the cause was porn and so now I've quit and am in the middle of a relapse.

    TL;DR
    I used to be a good athlete, got into video games, lost all motivation and eventually quit. Became a full time gamer, discovered porn, LOVED porn, watching it became an every night thing. Quit video games, social life and motivation came back, grades went from awful to impeccable, got into working out and everything was going great. Got a girlfriend, realized I couldn't get an erection, now two years later I've had the same problem with many more girls and have now started a reboot.


    Video games caused a lot of social, motivational, and even some depression issues with me. It was a real addiction and one that changed my life completely. Since I've quit, the changes I saw were amazing. I have relapsed a few times and about a month after I can notice the effects of my relapse. Its awful and now I'm away from it completely and hope to keep it that way.

    Porn is a similar addiction in a lot of ways. All addictions seem to work the same on you, the only difference is that porn has kept me from being able to have sex. I'm sure a lot of you have felt the same frustration I've had with this and I'm extremely motivated to end it once and for all. I can't wait to see the end results and to see if being away from it gives me even more confidence and motivation in my life.
     

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