Heavy sissy addiction

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Soccerboy20

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Hi,

Since my younger years I watched boy to girl videos and mastrubate on it, with the fantasy that I could be that boy. Later I discovered the term sissy porn and started with soft video's but iam currently on the heavy videos.

I even bought various dresses, a wig, pantyhose and lingerie. It's just a feeling that feels nice to be a girl but after the orgasm, I think what the f** Im doing. Later I looked for guys to chat with. I found a guy that loves me as a sissy, want to meet and train me. The fantasy is nice. But always after my ejaculation I feel disgusting and I know it's not normal.

I think it's terrible because I also love girls. But when I'm alone there is always the comeback thought of a sissy..

It's also in periodes. I have times that i don't watch it for months. But now I want to get over it for real because I'm feeling that it influence my normal sex life with girls.

What do you guys recommend en did you get over this terrible shit..
 
Soccerboy20 said:
Hi,

Since my younger years I watched boy to girl videos and mastrubate on it, with the fantasy that I could be that boy. Later I discovered the term sissy porn and started with soft video's but iam currently on the heavy videos.

I even bought various dresses, a wig, pantyhose and lingerie. It's just a feeling that feels nice to be a girl but after the orgasm, I think what the f** Im doing. Later I looked for guys to chat with. I found a guy that loves me as a sissy, want to meet and train me. The fantasy is nice. But always after my ejaculation I feel disgusting and I know it's not normal.

I think it's terrible because I also love girls. But when I'm alone there is always the comeback thought of a sissy..

It's also in periodes. I have times that i don't watch it for months. But now I want to get over it for real because I'm feeling that it influence my normal sex life with girls.

What do you guys recommend en did you get over this terrible shit..
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Abstain from porn and masturbation for a longer period of time. Also cut off the guy, I am almost sure he is just a fetishist and he doesn't care about you at all. The horror of sissy fetish is that it promises happines and acceptence but this is a lie.
 
Woah guys guys.. take it easy.. he might just be bisexual..
But yeah if you feel what you are doing is wrong, get rid of anything that reminds you of it, stop watching whatever gives you these feelings and replace any triggers with something else..
For example: i quit smoking a few years ago and every time i had a craving for a cig i used a vape mod instead.. now 3 years later i rarely use the vape mod either.. it's all about breaking habits.

And a fantasy is something that is going on in your head, in your head it might be great.. In reality you might not like it whatsoever. But at the end of the day it's your sexuality, so do what you feel is right.
But whatever you do PMO is not the way to go. Take care.
 
I kinda feel like this guy is going to feel quite attacked right now. I'm with TheMaster101 on this.

IMO get rid of the porn (and therefore MO to it).

Again, just in my opinion - there is nothing wrong with wanting to dress in women's clothing and that in it self shouldn't disgust you. What you need to be sure about is that porn isn't confusing your sexuality through wanting to try something more and more extreme to get a new buzz. Quit porn and quit thinking about porn if you do masturbate. Give the dressing up a break for a bit if you like and see how you feel after a decent break from porn.

Good luck with your own journey

oh, and the guy is probably not right for you at this stage - you need to be sure who you are.
 
jimparker said:
I kinda feel like this guy is going to feel quite attacked right now. I'm with TheMaster101 on this.

IMO get rid of the porn (and therefore MO to it).

Again, just in my opinion - there is nothing wrong with wanting to dress in women's clothing and that in it self shouldn't disgust you. What you need to be sure about is that porn isn't confusing your sexuality through wanting to try something more and more extreme to get a new buzz. Quit porn and quit thinking about porn if you do masturbate. Give the dressing up a break for a bit if you like and see how you feel after a decent break from porn.

Good luck with your own journey

oh, and the guy is probably not right for you at this stage - you need to be sure who you are.
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If OP is disgusted by his own fetishes it is better for him to abstain from them, especially as long as sissy fetish will have power over him. Even if "there is nothing wrong" with a fetish by some some standards, they may be source of psychological pain.
 
I would also say to take it easy on him. There's nothing wrong with this kink or fetish, and I instead think you should work on trying to get comfortable in your own skin. How do you know that it's porn induced? I'd recommend you go to a real therapist to talk this through as I see someone that's inherently insecure in his own self and his sexual life. Does porn or masturbation have any other effects you perceive as negative other than a feeling of shame over your fetishes? If not, then I don't see this necessarily as a PMO problem.

I think abstination from fetishes and denial just because rest of society perceive them as negative is in the long term more harmful than embracing it, feel that there's no fault with it, and controlling your life from there on forward.
 
TheMaster101 said:
Woah guys guys.. take it easy.. he might just be bisexual..
But yeah if you feel what you are doing is wrong, get rid of anything that reminds you of it, stop watching whatever gives you these feelings and replace any triggers with something else..
For example: i quit smoking a few years ago and every time i had a craving for a cig i used a vape mod instead.. now 3 years later i rarely use the vape mod either.. it's all about breaking habits.

And a fantasy is something that is going on in your head, in your head it might be great.. In reality you might not like it whatsoever. But at the end of the day it's your sexuality, so do what you feel is right.
But whatever you do PMO is not the way to go. Take care.
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jimparker said:
I kinda feel like this guy is going to feel quite attacked right now. I'm with TheMaster101 on this.

IMO get rid of the porn (and therefore MO to it).

Again, just in my opinion - there is nothing wrong with wanting to dress in women's clothing and that in it self shouldn't disgust you. What you need to be sure about is that porn isn't confusing your sexuality through wanting to try something more and more extreme to get a new buzz. Quit porn and quit thinking about porn if you do masturbate. Give the dressing up a break for a bit if you like and see how you feel after a decent break from porn.

Good luck with your own journey

oh, and the guy is probably not right for you at this stage - you need to be sure who you are.
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AGuyInHisBestYears said:
I would also say to take it easy on him. There's nothing wrong with this kink or fetish, and I instead think you should work on trying to get comfortable in your own skin. How do you know that it's porn induced? I'd recommend you go to a real therapist to talk this through as I see someone that's inherently insecure in his own self and his sexual life. Does porn or masturbation have any other effects you perceive as negative other than a feeling of shame over your fetishes? If not, then I don't see this necessarily as a PMO problem.

I think abstination from fetishes and denial just because rest of society perceive them as negative is in the long term more harmful than embracing it, feel that there's no fault with it, and controlling your life from there on forward.
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Who exactly was attacking him? All of us were just saying OP needs to abstain from pornography and more specifically sissy porn.
 
AGuyInHisBestYears said:
I would also say to take it easy on him. There's nothing wrong with this kink or fetish, and I instead think you should work on trying to get comfortable in your own skin. How do you know that it's porn induced? I'd recommend you go to a real therapist to talk this through as I see someone that's inherently insecure in his own self and his sexual life. Does porn or masturbation have any other effects you perceive as negative other than a feeling of shame over your fetishes? If not, then I don't see this necessarily as a PMO problem.

I think abstination from fetishes and denial just because rest of society perceive them as negative is in the long term more harmful than embracing it, feel that there's no fault with it, and controlling your life from there on forward.
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Dude, when I mentioned society? I was through sissy fetish I know how it is to feel like if your sexual desires are completely against who you really are, ok? Sissy porn is designed to change sexual tastes, it is designed to develop new fetishes in viewers. And fueling those fetishes mag create a vicious cycle. Sissy porn is among most dangerous generes of porn and it must be taken extremely seriously and anyone who had a problem with this particular genere should abstain from all fetishes connected to it for a period of time.

I have some fetishes that I know aren't porn induced and some that I am not sure about, there is nothing wrong with having a fetish, it is not somwthing we choose to have. However sometimes it is the fetish that control us, not the other way around. And I will stress this again - sissy porn is designed to make viewer losing control of his fetishes. OP mentioned liking women, but wanting to meet a guy to be "trained". I was there, I am straight, but sissy porn made me seeking sexual attention of men (luckily I didn't do anything IRL). And I wasn't bisesexual, it wasn't normal for me and after some time of abstinence I have zero such ideas, like before encountering sissy porn. Tl;dr it is not wrong to have fetish, but when fetish is destructive it should be abandoned.
 
AGuyInHisBestYears said:
I would also say to take it easy on him. There's nothing wrong with this kink or fetish, and I instead think you should work on trying to get comfortable in your own skin. How do you know that it's porn induced? I'd recommend you go to a real therapist to talk this through as I see someone that's inherently insecure in his own self and his sexual life. Does porn or masturbation have any other effects you perceive as negative other than a feeling of shame over your fetishes? If not, then I don't see this necessarily as a PMO problem.

I think abstination from fetishes and denial just because rest of society perceive them as negative is in the long term more harmful than embracing it, feel that there's no fault with it, and controlling your life from there on forward.
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And before you will continue larping as Dr Freud and diagnosing people on the internet - I don't feel bad about what is natural for me. It took me some time to accept my furry fetish because of all the taboo. I just don't talk about it in public, but I would discus it with my future partner. And I am no bisexual in denial. When I struggled with sissy porn I briefly wanted to be bisexual because then everything would be easier. Under sissy porn you don't know who you are and what is happening and this sucks. If something is natural for you you usually know it.
 
Me personally.. i can't look at man on man action for more than 10 seconds, it just doesn't click in my head.. At all.. It goes from rock hard to soft as a pillow.

But i'm sure there are enough straight identifying guys out there that would have sex with really feminine looking ladyboys and yet have no desire to get involved with their penises in any form whatsoever..

Not sure what category the dressing up as a sissy and getting on your bees knees goes in though.. Isn't that just gay? If you receive it's gay and if you dish out it's semi-straight hahahaha i have no idea what this is about..
 
OP is taking a walk down desensitization lane that's what this is about. As someone who's had both sissy fetish and homosexual encounters (which ended up repulsing me) I have a pretty good idea of what he is on about. The fact of the matter is that OP's reward center is more or less done with getting aroused over seeing women in porn and is now turning itself towards things that provide a bigger kick. His fascination, love and admiration for the feminin form is what is being expressed in this way. It can be the ultimate kick, liking women so much that you want to become one. It however proves nothing when it comes to sexual orientation. Believe me, fantasizing over gay stuff when watching porn and actually meeting up with a man to have sex are like night and day. The moment you'd meet up with that guy you'd know what I'm talking about. If it's a fetish, which it most likely is, simply being confronted with that man's personality and pheromones is going to be enough to convince you that you aren't gay and send you right back home. It's the fantasy that is so compelling, and if you keep pursuing it, you'll be in for some very rough withdrawals the moment you decide to quit porn because the rewiring process is very real.
 
Soccerboy20 said:
Hi,

Since my younger years I watched boy to girl videos and mastrubate on it, with the fantasy that I could be that boy. Later I discovered the term sissy porn and started with soft video's but iam currently on the heavy videos.

I even bought various dresses, a wig, pantyhose and lingerie. It's just a feeling that feels nice to be a girl but after the orgasm, I think what the f** Im doing. Later I looked for guys to chat with. I found a guy that loves me as a sissy, want to meet and train me. The fantasy is nice. But always after my ejaculation I feel disgusting and I know it's not normal.

I think it's terrible because I also love girls. But when I'm alone there is always the comeback thought of a sissy..

It's also in periodes. I have times that i don't watch it for months. But now I want to get over it for real because I'm feeling that it influence my normal sex life with girls.

What do you guys recommend en did you get over this terrible shit..
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My friend thank js for sharing your struggle and pain. This is not normal behavior but you know that already. If it was normal for you and you actually knew you were gay or bi you would have no problem and not feel so negative. This is another classic showing of what " escalation" and the power your brain has over you. Its "dopamine " your addiction too. You need to say away for ever and dont look back . Destroy all your toys dresses and more I believe in you so believe in yourself
 
ultrafabber said:
Oh and tell that guy to go fuck himself and that he's a degenerate that needs psychological assistance. Then never talk to him or anyone like him, they are disturbed individuals.
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Sorry ... why so hard on that guy u don‘t know while we dress up and serve them. Don‘t get me wrong but are you to judge who and what is degenerated?
 
fraschil said:
Sorry ... why so hard on that guy u don‘t know while we dress up and serve them. Don‘t get me wrong but are you to judge who and what is degenerated?
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I actually do understand the sissy thing, it's a mix of gender identity confusion, submission and anxiety/social anxiety. Same as cuckoldry. It's vulnerable guys. Then there are the other guys that take advantage of it, they are extremely exploitative/sociopathic.
 
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