Hi, Since my younger years I watched boy to girl videos and mastrubate on it, with the fantasy that I could be that boy. Later I discovered the term sissy porn and started with soft video's but iam currently on the heavy videos. I even bought various dresses, a wig, pantyhose and lingerie. It's just a feeling that feels nice to be a girl but after the orgasm, I think what the f** Im doing. Later I looked for guys to chat with. I found a guy that loves me as a sissy, want to meet and train me. The fantasy is nice. But always after my ejaculation I feel disgusting and I know it's not normal. I think it's terrible because I also love girls. But when I'm alone there is always the comeback thought of a sissy.. It's also in periodes. I have times that i don't watch it for months. But now I want to get over it for real because I'm feeling that it influence my normal sex life with girls. What do you guys recommend en did you get over this terrible shit..