Hello All!! Fighting Sick Demons Within Me...

I never thought I would eventually build an account on here, as a matter of fact that would've been the LAST thing on my mind years ago, but I've been struggling so much with PMO for almost a year now, that it just took over my sanity.

I'm 19 years old living in brooklyn, living with a family of five so I barely get any private time. But when I do it's either porn, or exercising. I didn't realize porn was an issue until early this year when I was watching some extreme shit (Like beastiality stuff, lolicon, etc). And it started giving me extreme anxiety and depression, and I don't usually deal with major mental problems unless it attacks my identity and morals.

I've been watching porn since I was 12, my "friends" were the ones that got me into it.
Months from earlier this year I've found the nofap community, and right before then I was dealing with issues such as POCD and was a complete train wreck. Once I learned that this wasn't me and it was the porn that shaped me this way, I began to stop PMOing. For my first attempt it was 6 days, before I PMOed to taboo content on Youtube, and resulted in me experiencing deep depression...

2nd attempt was almost 17 days of no fapping, but then failed because my horny side was getting the best of me again (looking a sexually suggestive content). But I'm not losing hope just yet, this time I plan on getting rid of ANY KIND of triggering content and go above 17 onto 90 or higher. I'm currently going to therapy in attempt to work out these issues, but I don't think my therapy session is very strong in this type of subject so I might end up switching(which will be a major pain in the ass).

Anyway while I was doing nofap, I felt a slight burst of energy and I was actually acting more like my old self before porn came into my life. I'm glad to be apart of the community and I hope to rid of these desires of mine.

 

Thank you, I hope this site can teach me a few tricks to better take care of myself.