First of all, thanks for receiving me here. I’m male, 19 years old. The truth is that I do not have much to tell. I am a PMO addict since I was 12, or 13 years old, maybe before. I do not accurately remember it. As many others, I fell in certain dark places. The beast in which porn converted me needed more and more. I did not get any illegal content, but was still repulsive. However, those were my worst times (16-17 years). At that time I used to fell three or four times a day in PMO. Then, through my conversion to traditional Catholicism, I realized that mine was, in effect, a serious problem. From that moment I tried to fight it. Today I am 19 years old. I abandoned all degenerate pornographic material without effort. When I fall, I only watch normal porn. The longest time I stayed clean (since I'm fighting against it) was three weeks. Today, I fall into PMO at least once a week. I'm tired. Tired of weakness. Of shame, of sadness, of the feeling of repulsion. I’m tired. Reading the success stories of several NoFap users, I realized that I still have hope. If many could, I am convinced that I can too. And I want to start today. I discovered NoFap after my last relapse. Looking for information about it, I came across a mention of NoFap and here I am. I have to be honest with you all. I'm sick of PMO because of how weak and vulnerable it makes me feel. I was never with a woman. I spent all my adolescence involved with the PMO. I was a weak and pitiful fag. Today I am different. I have more security from the moment of my conversion to Catholicism. But while one part of me wants to get away from all sinful behavior, the other wants the opposite. Yes, I want to give up porn and masturbation. I've made this firm decision: You will not fall into that again. But on the other hand I am getting closer and closer to go with a prostitute. Money is not a problem. However, my conscience tells me otherwise. I prayed to the Virgin Mary to help me with this. However, despite this, the sure thing is: No more porn, no more masturbation. So for the moment what I propose myself is to fight against the PM. Optimal would be to opt for the hard mode, but although I do not guarantee it, I will try my best. I will maybe inform next Saturday, because of my lack of time. However, I’ll try to be aware of the comments. In summary, my goals are the next: (Maybe some more will be added later) • No more PM. I will seek the optimum, also avoid the O. But I do not guarantee it yet. • Continue with my sports routine. Keep with the gym, gain weight (I'm skinny and tall) and start swimming. • My goal for now is fifteen days clean. If I succeed, I'll look to reach thirty days. • I have several study projects, and lot of lectures I want to start with. Some things that helped me a lot: • Pray one rosary per day. (I really enjoy doing it and it helps me fight against the urge) • I have a lot of spiritual help from a priest and friend, also my confessor. I report him each week. He helped me to maintain hope, and gave me a lot of good advices. • Sports, which i've mentioned before. And here are some phrases that have increased my hope: • We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit. (Aristotle, Nicomachean Ethics) • "Come now, let us settle the matter," says the Lord. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they will be as white as snow; although they are red as crimson, they will be like wool. (Isaiah 1:18) • Potential is only the expression of a possibility, something that can be evaluated accurately only in retrospect. In other words, you'll never know how good you might have become unless you try. (Mike Mentzer, bodybuilder, from one of his videos) Finally, congratulations for this page and its users. You’re doing a very laudable task in helping so many PMO addicts. May God and the Virgin Mary always protect you all. I'll listen to any suggestion or advice you have for me. Finally, I send a big hug to the members of this community.