Hello Everyone! I'm intending to make a fruitful voyage

Hello Everyone!

I am 23 and I am a last year undergraduate student.
I started fapping when I was 13. A friend of my elder brother had lent him a porn movie, and led by curiosity I watched and could not avoid masturbating. It was the first time and I liked it. However, I could notice that whenever I watched that film I had to be very cautious and acted strangely, for I was ashamed and did not wanted that my family could find out that I was watching porn. So I decided to quit porn and I could masturbate now and then. I did not give it too much importance to it, and I never looked for porn on the Internet. I limit myself to thinking of girls I knew, models, singers, and actresses on TV and Magazines. I was controlled and was able to get some sexual intercourse with real girls.
Then, when I was 16 I discovered a book on ancient Asian medicine, in which the benefits of semen retention were discussed. The arguments there presented appealed to me and I managed to get almost a month without masturbating. Then, during the following year I masturbated just once or twice a month, I gave up the idea of trying to last longer and was content with the control I had over the habit.
But the problems began 5 years ago, I was convinced of the supposed benefits of daily masturbation, and decided to begin to watch porn. Some friends made jokes about popular porn actresses that I could not understand. It also gave me curiosity of entering in those porn pages. I began to create a habit concerning. However, I could notice that I did this just when I was alone in my room, and mostly on weekends, whenever I was busy with my studies I would not watch porn. And there were moments, when I was more focused on my relations with friends and real people that I could last more than 3 weeks without looking for porn. I believe I wasn't addicted at it. The worst effect it had was that sometimes I put off my work, and ended writing poor essays because I had spent some few hours watching porn, and not getting good sleep. I think there was a moment in which I expended some 7 hours a week watching porn, I felt lonely and detached of society. It was bad for me, because when you are taking a university degree, you don't have to waste your time in that way. Discipline builds your skills, and it was clear that the time I could have spent in doing better assessments, was poorly spent in porn and masturbation. Previously I could flirt with girls and make them laugh, and my behavior towards them was natural. But, after porn abuse and having neglected my social life, I found myself scaring girls whenever I tried to talk to them.
Last December I tried to do semen retention again. I did it just for two weeks. The second week was quite good. And since then I been masturbating once a week. I have enrolled in this site, because I want to be able to contain myself of doing this for more time, I'm curious for knowing how it is to past the 90 days barrier. I believe you would see women very differently. And I also want to use my energy to reach real goals. So, I am thankful that site exists and hope to be an active member.