I'm soon to be 20 years old within 1.5 months. I started to masturbate at age 10 and since then I'm a largely frequent masturbater. I'm largely relying on pictures rather than porn, which is rather new and rare to me. I can stand for too long, I often see around two hours when I masturbate, because I frequently "start-stop" during masturbation. I'm also into semen retention; I don't ejaculate everytime I masturbate, sometimes I can go three sessions in a row before I ejaculate (frequently accounts for between 5-9 days at total), with my record being 5. Almost nine and half years of excessive masturbation gave me procrastination disease, anxiety, low self-esteem (it's actually bumpy), physically weak body, inability to meet with girls, notably lower memory and an unhealthy skin and so on. Glad semen retention made me recover at least slightly, but I want more as I'm tired of walking at the edge of some bad mental status'. I also have a pregnant admire/fetish. I acknowledge that it is very out of ordinary even while I'm getting excited when I see real girls, and none of 8 girls in high school that I fell in love were pregnant. It is also born from something unrelated to porn, it actually originates from a cartoon that I used to watch many many times I think. I don't think that's a very big problem -at least for now- since I don't stare at pregnant women in street and I only masturbate in my room at nights. Any advices and opinions will be welcomed.