hello I’m new here and need your help.

Citizen 857

New Fapstronaut
Hello guys! My name shall be Citizen, i will release my name when i feel more confident, however I stumbled upon this website after watching the series Dark Net. I saw an episode where this website was mentioned and I said why not. 15minutes before all this I had masturbated and had 15 tabs open of my favorite porn videos just so I can release twice. I’ve had this porn addiction and masturbation addiction ever since I was a kid. I am 29 now, this addiction has cost me my last relationship and I am at the point of life where I just can’t have an interaction with a female because I imagine myself doing things to them for a release, i see them enjoying it and everything. It’s affected my work life and my personal life to the point i would spend my money controlling webcammers toys giving them an orgasm. I’ve started watching porn at work just to get off or I would have a “moody” day. I can’t have a relationship as the last one got so bad because I could only get off to porn and she would think I wasn’t into her. When I would get off it would be cuz I was rough with her.

I really would love help. I’ve had the issue where I would lose my hard on mid session of being with my partner. I figured I would ask for help here and see what I can do to have my life back. I honestly lost so many family moments due to porn and masturbation. I’ve isolated myself from the world just for that split second of pleasure.

What is it that I can do? Please help!
 
Welcome! I hope that you can find a really good accountability partner here! This is the first step to recovery! You can do this!
 
Hello my friend, I'm a newbie here too and I would just like to say that you will be ok. All the help you need is right here and you will learn and read about people that are in the same situation as you. You are not alone
 
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