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Hello, my name is Zain. I am seventeen years old. I am a high school student. So I've been struggling with porn for years. It all started with my careless parents! When I was about 7-8 years old, I, for the first time saw naked women on my father's phone. I felt horrible after seeing those photos. I was astonished that why my father has kept those dirty images. I ignored them and considered them as immoral. Then when I was 12, I began experiences changes in my body (puberty). Of course I was sexually curious, so I started to watch porn and discovered how to masturbate. I did this all by myself without letting my parents know anything of what I did. Deep inside myself, I felt this guilt every time I masturbated. I felt like I was stuck and completely powerless. I saw many posts online, but none of them helped.

I, once abstained from masturbation about 3 months but somehow ended up falling in the trap again. I've recently found this website through YouTube and I am happy that I did because it might change my life completely! After years of masturbation I feel completely demotivated in doing anything. Stress engulfs me everyday. I can't have that fun time as I used to have before. I am unable to make friends because of this guilt inside of me. I feel lonely all the time. My relationship with my parents have greatly affected due to this dirty habit. And even till now I think it was my parents mistake. But I am hoping to recover through Nofap, and finally live my life freely and happily!

 

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Everyone here have worse or similar story like yours. Porn addiction destroyed our happiness and every one we loved. Because of my addiction I lost my best friend and girl whom I loved most . It's never too late we are all facing same enemy who is much powerful than whole of us. All this years we all tried to defeat it alone but end result was failure. So let's fight together. I am sure by now you have understood that's this addiction is almost impossible to break and it requires patience and commitment . I have failed hundred times before I could successfully hold it for 250 days.
Best of luck in your journey.
You can do this