Hello, i'm new to all this, but i'm extremely desperate.

Hello all, my name is Igor, i'm currently going through something extremely hard in my life, i'm conflicted about a lot of things, i've been a porn "user" since i was 8 years old, but i became truly addict when i was 15, but now i have reached the point where i need to have it, i wake up and i watch it, if i stay long without it, i feel weird, like an itch that does not go away, i'm in desperate need of help, but i can't do it alone anymore, it's too hard for me and i realized that if i stay this way, i'll only hurt myself, seeing porn led me to do many stupid things and decide on stupid things, i have slept with hookers, and not only females, i'm not going to lie here, but for some reason, i have hated every single experience, i used to date a girl before i did all that, and the sex wasn't good because i couldn't really be in the moment, i was always thinking about porn when we were having our intimate moment, and i can't even properly do that, so it has affected everything in my life, my mind and body health are suffering because of that, i really don't know what to do, if this can help me change i think i can become a new man, i have a good job, i love what i do, i currently study too, but all of this is being destroyed by a "simple" addiction, that refuses to go away, i have done MANY stupid decision because of that, and i'm paying for it, however i made my peace with it, paying the price is something i have to do i guess, they were my choices at the end of the day, and i can't control the past, but i can control my present and influence my future, if you can help me, please, hear my desperate cry for help, because i need urgently, i'm going crazy.
Thanks for everything, and sorry for the mistakes, i'm from Brazil, a 24yr old guy, who loves math and physics, and i guess this is it.

 

I guess it's true, i'm just glad to know i'm not alone, gives me some strength, you know.