Hi, obscure group of strangers with whom I have something in common, this writing thing is a little new to me so please bear with me. I've been struggling with mo for just over a decade now, and I've been through many ups and downs on the way to "rebooting." I've never gotten into pornography in the traditional sense but have read explicit literature, dwelt on scenes in a movie, and even sought dirty jokes that fueled my mo tendencies. My biggest triggers seem to be: loneliness and a desire to fit in, boredom or disappointment, even anger. Sometimes if I feel as though I'm already in a state of mortal sin (like I've let God down and damned myself to hell), I wallow in this state and go on what can only be described as masturbation binges. I only choose to regain some self-control when I've confessed my sins, after which I can go for maybe a week or two before experiencing the same temptations and (usually) giving in. I haven't done so in the past two weeks, but I'm experiencing that temptation and am ready to ask for help. I know that ultimately this is about my choice to indulge a particular desire or crush it. Is there a way to do this without having it feel oppressive? I know that mo doesn't actually make me feel better emotionally or spiritually, but in these moments, I really cannot rationalize with feelings that are irrational. Honestly, I don't know what the point is in sharing all this online and making myself vulnerable to countless people via the internet but I'm really hoping that others may be able to understand what I'm going through. Does anyone have tips on how to ditch this habit for good, especially when so many others are condoning this behaviour (minus the guilt)?