Hello! Intro.

Just joined and ready to take the next step to cure this nasty habit. I started with porn and felt that I didn't have a problem. I began to realize that I had a problem was when I joined a cam site and started to regularly chat with models.

I would spend hours on the sites and eventually started to go "private" with some models. I've spent so much money on these interactions. I feel a personal connection to the models because they do a damn well job at making you feel special, when really they're just great at putting on an act and only care about getting your money. Id feel so worthless after each session and feel pathetic for spending so much money for something like this. I've been using camsites for about 2 years now and have spent an unknown amount on them.

Everytime I tell myself I'm done I find myself crawling back. The most progress I made was permanently deleting my account recently and not even thinking/visiting the site for about 3 weeks. I'm not sure what triggered it, but I eventually created a whole new account and went crawling back to the same models and down the hole again.

I don't know why it's so tough. I just hate spending money on something so worthless. This is my journey, and I'm ready to finally put an end to this. I want to meet a girl and actually have a genuine relationship but I haven't been able to meet people.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Just posting this makes me feel a little better that there are others who are willing to assist me on this journey!!