Hello. It's time for a change

Hi, I'm David.
I'm 52 years old and this is my second go at recovery. I tried journaling before on another website 4 or 5 years ago (I can't remember the name of the site and couldn't find it on Google - maybe it's defunct).

I've been using P since high school. Casually in college. Very heavy user in my first marriage. In 2nd marriage now for nearly 20 years and the P use is the worst its ever been. I notice an increase in the negative impact on our emotional and physical relationship. I want things to be better. She deserves it, so here I am.

In the past, I told her that I had a P problem during the 1st marriage but haven't admitted that it is ongoing. I don't know if I will talk with her about it. Perhaps when I get things under control and get a few months under my belt. I consider P use as cheating and I imagine she does too. I don't want to hurt her. I don't want to screw up what we have... I just want to make things better.

So, here goes... I'll start a challenge and let you know how it goes.

 

Thanks so much for sharing your plan. It makes a lot of sense.