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Fapstronaut
Hi
Im a fifty-something male who has been a porn and sex addict for about 35 years. I have had an escort habit for about the last 25 years.
I have tried specialist therapy, self control, Sex Addicts Anonymous and read numerous books yet still my addiction prevails.
I heard about NoFap recently and promised myself that it will be the way I conquer this menace so here I am; going to war on the habits that have cost me dearly.
As I write, im completing my 5th day completely PMO and escort clean. It's not a record, i've done more but I do have a fresh attitude and im encouraged by some of the stories Ive read here.
I've learned that porn is the gateway to escorts both in any given day or in one's life as a whole. Ive also learned that allowing casual paid sex in one's life leads one to think that casual sex in one's life in amy other way is OK too. It's not.
And I've learned that I have been allowing myself too much freedom. Freedom to indulge in my habits and freedom to think that just reducing the frequency is a tick in a box. It's not. And I have ignored what discovery might look like - the cataclysm that would ensue.
So if I am going to give up - completely, then I need to a) sever some very strong ties to internet porn - especially the demon Adultwork, b) recognise, list and act to defend myself from known triggers c) actively pursue distractions and d) get real about the consequences of what life would be like if I got found out by my loving family.
Here we go.
Im a fifty-something male who has been a porn and sex addict for about 35 years. I have had an escort habit for about the last 25 years.
I have tried specialist therapy, self control, Sex Addicts Anonymous and read numerous books yet still my addiction prevails.
I heard about NoFap recently and promised myself that it will be the way I conquer this menace so here I am; going to war on the habits that have cost me dearly.
As I write, im completing my 5th day completely PMO and escort clean. It's not a record, i've done more but I do have a fresh attitude and im encouraged by some of the stories Ive read here.
I've learned that porn is the gateway to escorts both in any given day or in one's life as a whole. Ive also learned that allowing casual paid sex in one's life leads one to think that casual sex in one's life in amy other way is OK too. It's not.
And I've learned that I have been allowing myself too much freedom. Freedom to indulge in my habits and freedom to think that just reducing the frequency is a tick in a box. It's not. And I have ignored what discovery might look like - the cataclysm that would ensue.
So if I am going to give up - completely, then I need to a) sever some very strong ties to internet porn - especially the demon Adultwork, b) recognise, list and act to defend myself from known triggers c) actively pursue distractions and d) get real about the consequences of what life would be like if I got found out by my loving family.
Here we go.
