Hello everybody. I'm a doctor in south america. I'm gonna tell you my story. It all began when I was 13 years old. I didn't know about the fap, but I had my interest in nude women because of my older brother and his nude material from his friends. He had videos, posters, even some women pics we downloaded from the telephone internet (so slow), and we printed them out. The fapping began when I asked my school partner how it was this fapping, then he explained it to me. So I tried out that night with the cable porn channel that we used to hack (It was a blurry fine tune kinda thing that we used to do to watch the porn channel). That's the beggining of my doom. After that night, the intensity became more and more demanding, so that I even jerked off 6 to seven times a day. I was going straight to my doom. But then I got to pray a lot, because It was consuming my all life, I was failling in school, was a bad son, and had blood shot eyes everyday. So I got to pray a lot and so I was able to pass my teenage years improving my life. Then in my twenties I decided to overcome it by sleep wiith as much women as I could. I gotta admit those sexy ladies really gave me a boost, so I decreased my urges in a month or even 7 months without doing it. Then I got inloved and married. My sex life was fine, the first months, until my wife wouldn't do it whenever I wanted, so I began to watch porn again, and got hooked up with this fap again. I'm 5 years married now, and don't have children, had one baby loss when my wife was going through the end of her first quarter. I am so sad, to think that It was my fault, for doing it during the period of getting her pregnant. So in a way I think It's the guilt that makes me feel sadder, depressed and falling into this masturbating spiral of doom. I want out. But I can't do it on my own. So here I am, looking for some help to prevent me from doing this to me and my wife. Thank you for reading this.