Hello there! 3/4 of my life into pmo.

I've made this account a while ago, but haven't posted anything until now. So, about me..
I'm 28 y old man, living and working abroad as ordinary production worker in industrial butchery.
First sex-related thing i recall, was happening still in kindergarten when i was maybe 4-5 years old. I used to have female-friend which let me... lick her anus from time to time. She found it funny and I found it arousing, since I always had femdom fantasies. I had no idea about sex or masturbation at the time. Then, when I was 7 years old, older friend of mine, taught me how to masturbate. At first i did it just for pleasure of orgasm, then i saw some magazines or a movie from time to time, but it was still rather rare, so my childhood went pretty normal (except those rare fantasies like being forced to give oral pleasure to adult woman etc.) I grew up, began to ejaculate, fantasize about friends from school, bought my first PC, and found out online internet porn. Then occurred pretty long and complex journey of developing my PMO sickness which I'm gonna skip until recent life.
The worst and critical moment happened when I discovered cocaine + alcohol mix, and 6 hour-long sessions of masturbation. After few sessions I found out so called ''sissy porn'' and this one really got me into it. Even tho nowadays, I'm trying to fight for better future, and the last time i touched coke was like 4 months ago, I'm still losing over and over to PMO, and experiencing that ''sissy fetish'' in my mind almost every day. The longest streak I've accomplished so far was precisely 50 days. Today I relapsed after 4 days streak.
So that's it about me. Hope I didn't make that story too long .