Hello there! A 17 year-old here who wants to change his ways :)

Hi all! I'm a simple 17 year-old kid who's decided to change my old ways of being addicted to masturbation and whatnot as I felt it was a major benefactor to me being socially awkward and depressed most of the time. I have to say that I'm glad I realized this fact this early on in my life as I'm hoping that I can improve myself to be a much better person by the time I reach my twenties

Anyway, a little bit about me. I am not someone you'd call super social and whatnot. I'm somewhat introverted in the sense that I do indeed love to hang out with people, but I'm always like up for nice refreshing alone time to recharge myself every now and then. I just find it sad to admit that it was thanks to these alone times that my unhealthy masturbation habit really strengthened See, I don't actually watch porn regularly, I fap to my vivid imagination a majority of the time since I could pretty much let these imaginary situations go however way I want to. Whether it be to some hot classmates of mine or a random girl I notice on the street for a few minutes, my brain just goes into dirty mode and I get urges that are VERY hard to resist This whole thing started in elementary (I think I was maybe 11 or so), but it really got bad in high school, I was absolutely addicted by then. And it was only recently that I realized that it was a root cause for me being so awkward and weird back then (nowadays I still am, but thankfully not as much)...

As I venture into the world of college, I really want to be more confident around people and be able to make friends more easily, and I find that one good way to help with that is to stop with masturbation cold turkey. After discovering the NoFap subreddit and reading all about how it can really help you out in life I had a mini-revelation. I noticed in the past few months that there were a few consecutive days where I was super busy with work stuff so I didn't even have time to think of masturbating, and these were the days where I found I could act myself and be natural around any kind of people. I wanted that to happen everyday, so I decided to take on the challenge in an effort to become a better person. All that happened last April 18, yet so far the longest I've gone without being tempted was 6 days...(from April 21-26...and before you ask, YES I made a journal just for this lol) So you can pretty much tell that my resist game isn't that strong. And I really want it to be. That's why I decided to take a step further and sign up to this community. I want to be with the like minded people and hope that these success stories and motivational posts (and that Panic Button!) would be able to help me resist urges better.

Another big reason as to why I'm doing this is because, just like every adolescent guy, I've taken an interest in the whole "dating girls" thing, and currently I'm being socially awkward this one girl whom I've had a huge crush on for quite a while now (basically we've been close friends for 7 months and I've had feelings for her since January this year...yes I have a journal for this too dammit). I really want to be able to gather courage to ask her out in some way to take things further, and I felt that if I'm able to improve my NoFap game, then surely I'll have a much easier time with this, plus with many other things in my life!

So yeah, I don't really know how to end this but that's basically it. Thanks for having me here and I hope we can all better ourselves together! Cheers from the Philippines too by the way

 

Hey thanks so much man! Let's be good friends haha

Just know that I'll be rooting for you as well. Let's conquer this shared habit together!