Hello World

Hello everyone. Thought I would give the forums a try because attempting a reboot "lone wolf" style hasn't been working out. If anything, things have gotten worse.

A big part of that, I think, is that I have no one to talk to about the struggle I'm going through in my everyday life. I've worked hard to keep my addiction and spending a secret from friends and family. But that just creates a knot of tension in my gut that gets relieved by every relapse and creates more incentive for me to fail to reboot.

So, hopefully just talking about it, even anonymously online, will help keep me on the straight and narrow. And of course I'll try to support anyone I can in return, pay good forward and all that.

Even writing this first post kind of lightens my heart a little bit. See you all around.

 

Dear god, yes, this is so true. Part of how I can tell things are starting to get out of control is how I've been staying up later and later just to get that thrill. It even started affecting my work performance and driving I was so tired from staying up until midnight to watch.

First thing I've decided to do on the road to recovery is put strict curfews on all my electronic devices.

Thank you for the warm welcome. I think I'll start a daily journal on the forum. If nothing else it will be a consistent reminder of what I'm trying to accomplish. What we're all aiming for really.[/QUOTE]