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Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by NerdBeagle, Oct 24, 2019.

  1. NerdBeagle

    NerdBeagle Fapstronaut

    Hello, I'm NerdBeagle and I'm an 18 year old dude who's been struggling with porn and masturbation most of my life. I remember when I was young, about 6 or 7, I would go to my family computer when my parents were in the room, and I'd look up images of women, and while I didn't know anything about sex, I knew that I liked what I was seeing. I got caught looking at porn back then, and I stopped for quite a while.
    I was about 13 when I fell back into it. I had an internet friend, who was being a bit crude one day, and he basically told me how to masturbate (I should say he did it indirectly, and i hold nothing against him for it). From then on, I have struggled with it all.
    I've told my parents on a few occasions, but it seemed to be generally useless to do so. It's not that they didnt care, I dont think, it's just that they've never had to deal with anything like it, and so I don't think they knew how to handle it.
    I've been in a relationship with a beautiful and loving girl for over 2 years (3 at Christmas), and we were straight up with each other right at the start if the relationship, telling all our dark secrets to each other. She's my main accountability partner right now, and I hope to remain open and honest with her. I think it's important to keep open communication, especially because while we are at college, we are doing long distance, which I think has actually strengthened our relationship a lot.
    I also have one other friend that knows about my struggle, and we talk about it every now and then, but it's not very consistent.
    Both my gf and I are Christians, and we believe in abstaining from sex until marriage (and have been successful thus far!).
    My struggles have fed into me deeply. In addition to porn, I have severe anxiety and depression, both generally come in swings, and are more plentiful after a downfall. But, I'm not sure if they're always linked, because last year I started college, and that's the worst I've been that I could remember. There was an instance where i had to write something interesting about myself on a notecard, and the professor was going to read it at some random point in the semester to the whole class, and after I turned it my notecard, my thoughts were so loud, it was like someone was constantly screaming at me about what I wrote.
    As I'm writing this, I am on day 0 of being porn and masturbation free, and I haven't had a streak more than about a week in a very long time. I found NoFap by searching google for something like a " no porn forum" or something like that, after reading an article about how to stop looking at porn, which said to join a forum. I looked at a few threads, read the guide thingy, and decided that this seemed to be a community if good people for a common goal against a common enemy.

    Thanks for having me :)
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  2. Suk

    Suk Fapstronaut

    Welcome brother, this is a really good community. I hope you find the support and guidance you need...don't give up on PMO, stay strong!
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  3. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
  4. Jefe Rojo

    Jefe Rojo Fapstronaut

    Wow, nice work! Way to be open and honest with your struggles. It helps to be able to talk to someone face to face about it.

    Good for you! I waited until marriage too and it was the ultimate gift I could give my wife on our wedding night.

    Well, things are about to change for the better :). You must stick with it though. Stay here with us, learn how to effectively combat this addiction, apply those lessons and you will go far. Also, reach out and offer support for others here. There is much strength that can be gained by doing this.

    I wish you the best! Take care and welcome to NoFap. :)

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