Hey people! First of all, i'd like to let you know im not eng. speaker so its not easy for me to use this language but i hope u will understand everything I registered to this site bcos i found it much helpful in case of M and P... i started to M when i was 14 yo (its like 9 years now)... and though i tried to quit many times, i relapsed every single time and got back into the routine. I have never quit for more than about 1week or so... if would someone tell me i can quit it for like 1 month or so, i would probably call him a fool... Later in my life (about 15 or 16 yo - about 8 years now) i started to watch porn videos. Of course, firstly it was just some soft strip or softcore ones but as u all know, by the time i needed more and more... for the same brain stimulation. I was not such regular porn user. I use to watch like maybe 3-5times a month or so... you know... i was not that kind of guy that watch porn almost everyday... but still it was pretty enough to build a kind of addiction. Of course, if i watched porn, mostly it was not a matter of few minutes... i used to spent even couple of hours clicking, searching, watching... I case of M, i used to do it almost everyday, sometimes a few times a day... of course, i could quit for like 2-4 days... but as i mentoined before, my longest break was max for like 1 week... at the beginning it was mostly to my personal fantasies, but as you all probably know, the more porn i got into my brain, the less own fantasies i could think of... I remember, once in my life, maybe 2-3 years ago, i quit P for few months. I felt better but i was still fapping much and watched many P-subs that lead me to P again since that time, i was not able to quit for that long time. But then, sometimes in my life changed a bit... I accidentaly found a vide of guy talking about why he quit Porn (totaly) and even masturbation for few months. He mentioned all those benefits and stuff... and there was links to this site and also to YBOP site and reddit in the vid description... that was a huge stimul for me! I figured out, quitting P and M could be something like challenge! I love challenges and when i found community of many people that quit porn and M, stories... you know.. once i found out there is a community of people challenging theirselfs this way, it kicked me out and i told to myself, i must try it too! That was huge motivation for me. This happened few weeks ago. So even though i used to masturbate elmost everyday and also watch porn, i decided to quit instantly. Do you know how i deal with that? Well i quit just for 7 days with masturbation. For few couple of days it was not much difficult for me but then, on the day 7 i got huge urge... i went on internet and searched for some tips of why not to masturbate, some motivation stuff... and do you know what i found. I dont know how, but i found people (many women ofc) discussing about masturbation benefits, about how they love it, about some great techniques etc... of course, i couldnt keep my eyes out of it. I started to play with my cock... i didnt want to know to search for porn... but i just felt uncontrollable need of M... and while i was still "playing" i just jerked off /im not sure, is this the right term for ejaculation? / I felt so bad.. i felt like the whole 1week was for nothing. I masturbated few more times that day, but without porn... On the other day i decided i have to start again. I learned something from this relapse. I must be very careful using internet and try to not even touch the dick... it can lead to huge relapse. Now it is my 12th day without masturbation. To be honest its probably the hardest day. Today i feel much horny but im determined not to fail again. Not today! And same tomorrow, and other days.... Now i know what caused my first relapse... I know its not much but if anybody tells me i can stand without masturbation for 12 days i'd say its not possible for me... its just 12 days but for me its like climbing a month everest. Its extremely hard for me no to seach for porn and even not to masturbate. You see that hot girls everywhere. Your own fantasies and giant database of porn movies still fights against you. Even not sex-related situations sometimes brings me to thinking about porn. I think its a sign my brain is pretty damaged and needs recovery.... But i dont wanna fail again... In case of porn, im not really sure when i watched it lastly, but it was probably about 3 weeks ago... So this is it for now... i wish you all the best. Im sure we can win our fight.