Warning this post may be triggering if you suffer from this lust as well. I am currently in my 20s and I have been addicted to porn since I was 12 years old. For 1 year I was able to stop it but it came back hard and quite possibly worse than ever. I am not viewing porn every week like I did in my teens but the type of dopamine fix I crave is much different now. When I was young I was slightly into futanari but I wasnt really into the penis at all, I just liked seeing girls penetration girls with a penis. It was like that for years then at one point in my 20s, I began wanting to have sex with futas but still it was weird the penis didn't do much. Wasn't till 2 years ago where this kept escalating worse and worse. When looking at porn one day randomly early last year I discovered what frottage was and honestly to my stupid dick it is one of the hottest things ever. I got to the point where I am fully into penises and even turned on by transexual body structure that looks slightly less feminine. I've always been into Asian girls and honestly I would like to marry one someday, but because of my love for Asian women and culture I of course ended up learning about Thai ladyboys. I hate it, even the name gives me a boner. I get scared sometimes that someday if I look at ladyboy porn that it will ruin my regular attraction to real Asian women. I've grown up with mental issues so I haven't really understood the attraction of vaginas till literally this year. Sometimes I hear autism and other issues can cause weird sexual development. Like somehow I was attracted to anal sex with women at 16 but many years later I finally get vaginas? On a normal day I am mostly straight and don't think anything of penises but once the weird lust comes in I cannot get rid of it till I fap at and have 5 more orgasms throughout the day. Seriously I'm really good at killing my porn and masturbation adduction till this comes up, in fact sometimes I've caved into straight porn just to try and kid the stupid bisexual tendencies I have. I'm worried someday this will lead me to having sex with a transwoman someday, and I rather not have that happen. I really do not want these desires at all and I am so sick of them, even this post was triggering for me to type. I also do not want my love for Asian women poisoned by transwoman crap. FYI: I don't not hate trans people I just do not want to be sexually attracted to them. I am religious and even regardless of my faith I deep down like biological women more. This is merely an unhealthy addiction affecting my life.