Hello brothers This is a letter to myself, to help myself from relapsing. If you have something valuable to say it would be very appreciated. I am very close to relapsing. I am about to take a drivers license, which might become difficult if I relapse. I am enjoying the glow of my skin, my confidence, and my flow of speech. I like my newfound focus I like that I feel more capable I like that everything feels better in life. I am close to relapsing, and it is not because of an urge. It is a mental buildup, my mind keeps reminding me of how wonderful it is with pmo. My mind has forgotten the side-effects. My mind sees the pleasure only. I have switched my focus throughout the day to exercising, cold showers, guitar playing and to a birthday party. All this while having this mental buildup in the back of my mind. I don't know how to get rid of it. If I can't, I will relapse soon, and I don't want that. Is there anyone who can identify with my current situation and how to get past it? Help would be greatly appreciated.