I just found out my fiances porn addiction a few weeks ago (I saw pictures and a lot of horrible stuff, he didn't confess) I'm in so much pain, it's been an emotionally roller coaster, I feel the urge to run away or ask him to leave. He's been working a lot to make it better through videos and stuff, he's also been going to therapy. He says tha he's in a lot of guilt and pain but he says he feels better, liberated, like he has a second chance in life, and that he's working on it. And also he has been very understanding of my pain and trying to be supportive. But it just feels wrong to me, I feel a very deep pain. we've been talking a lot. I understand that its not about me, and i want to heal. each time i ask him to leave I can't follow through my decision. but I feel like I can't be in this relationship anymore. I'm just so confused all the time. is it normal to feel like this at the beginning? do people that choose to stay in the relationship, feel it since the beginning? I can't feel love right now, I can easily understand that he has a problem I can ephatize with his problem and not judge him. but this is just to much for me. I keep feeling like a deserve a clean love. that maybe is the best to break up. But it just so painful to see him leave. but sometimes I want him to stay. Is it normal? Please help, I don't see the right way out.