help me please

What are you trying to do?
And more importantly - why?

 

I can not help you in any way until you answer questions I posted.

 

So you decided to stop masturbation, because you don't like it and believe it prevents you from succeeding.

Here is my simple interpretation of your problems.
You are feeling like you are not successful, you feel like you are a "looser" and decided that masturbation is the root cause.
You think that if you stop masturbation, you will magically become a "winner" and problems you have now will be resolved, life will become comfortable and enjoyable, you will be a "winner".

Some food for thought specifically "cooked" for you:
To be a "winner" at anything, you must be ready endure discomfort, pain, suffering, give up things you like, do things you do not like, you have to be ready to work harder than anyone else, put more time in to your goals than anyone else and suffer more than anyone else doing the same thing.
Dedicating yourself completely to your goal, no matter the pain, no matter the cost - that is what make you a winner.
You are a "looser" because you have no desire to dedicate yourself to a difficult goal and follow though, you cant even stop masturbating for few weeks, to test your hypothesis.
You have not learned to stay focused and endure, you are not ready to sacrifice, feel discomfort and pain to achieve your goals and that is what makes you a "looser".
And because you can not achieve your goals, you look for something to blame. You found masturbation, congratulations.

People feel lost, when they do not achieve complex, difficult and rewarding goals, when they do not need to make sacrifices, and endure pain to do what they want or believe is right.

So you are right, you need to learn how to achieve difficult goals, but your lack of success has nothing to do with masturbation, you just do not know how to succeeded. Its a skill you need to cultivate.

Start with a cold shower, for 30 seconds, every day - no excuses, see if you can do that daily, no matter what you feel or think.
When you have to get in to that shower and you fight your own mind to get out of it - that is when you will be facing your real problem - lack of perseverance and endurance.

 

The way forward is not to bulldoze your way through this addiction on willpower alone.

- Get educated. Spend the time to figure out what you are dealing with and what to expect.
- Learn from every reset. You have to know what causes a relapse and how to react when the same situation occurs next time
- Put in the work. This is a process of constant learning and the improvement of your life, trying to abstain from PMO is not enough

Hope this helps