HELP! Relapse after 5 days. Feeling discouraged and weak

I was 5 days without pornography and masturbation. The first day was difficult, but I managed to get through it. The second and third day it seemed like detox, my mind responded with anxiety to the extreme, even though they were good days and with feeling of freedom. The fourth day was a battle, I wanted very much to look at pornography and I was anxious and disturbed. But that day I won and felt great. On the fifth day I cheated. In order not to look at porn I entered a site of erotic tales and failed miserably. I ended up masturbating and I also saw pornography. I feel terrible, I was feeling good about everything, life, college and then I fail. I am broken!
But one thing happened while I watched the pornography, during which it was rolling, it looks like the record fell. I felt disgusted with myself and what I was seeing, so I closed it immediately. I've never felt this before, I do not know if it's a good thing or I should start worrying about my mental health. But I'm getting attached to it and starting my count again. From now on. I only hope to get more days and more days.

 

[QUOTE = "JoePineapples, post: 1607436, member: 56095"] Ok, use-o como um processo de aprendizado e siga em frente. Você aprendeu uma maneira de não falhar! Boa sorte. [/ QUOTE]
Thanks, my friend. Means a lot to me!