Hello everyone, I hope ya"ll having a great day. I hope the journey is going smoothly for ya. Well, what can I say mine ain't smooth and the path is full of traps and pits. everytime I do good and have a good streak I fall and fall bad. got stuck into that rabithole forever and my relapse take longer. I'm writing this thread to seek Help and reach out to fellow Fapstrounaut. I've been in Nofap since 2017 but I never was that active , Today I decided that I'll use Nofap "the right way" and interact with others. So yeah! I'll talk about what is bothering me, it is this month and this quarantine thing is not helping either. So I relapsed around 7 times this month and my last one was the worst ( I binched watched porn for hour and fapped 5 times in less than 12 hours ) I know what I was thinking, ( U know i had some really bad thoughts ) I wanted to escape my ugly reality and avoid my emptyness . I felt really shitty and I told myself why not masturbate, fuck it, I'll fap my self to death , until I black out and just stop this fucking cycle of suffering . I'm also a loner and introvert, I literary have no friends or even pals or even strangers that u regularly talk to . I live with my parents at the moment but I feel like they are not even there. they have no freaking idea of what I am going through . they think I'm Good and healthy where the reality of the matter is the opposite .I feel so low and hopeless and Have no goal in my life , I'm on my last semester in college but I screw my career up . My brain ain't the same , My body too and my cognitive abilites are bad . this shit is giving me migraines and damaging my brain . I dunno why I'm still even living ( I wish I can die but I know that I'm not brave enough to commit suicuide ) what can I do ? u guys think there's Hope ? u think there's reason for me ? I'm confused and My self is abused and there's nothing in Mind . Help Me Please!