I'll sum up my story . My older sibling introduced me to hentai when I was small. It was funny to see girls do those things . I didn't understand . Later I became addicted and understood. Then I left it . For many years I didnt even think about it. One day I remembered and I started watching , I got a very hurtful headache and didnt watch anymore for quite some long time. Then one day I was scrolling instagram and some sexualised images appeared. I tried to report those pictures but they kept appearing. It was a useless fight. All those sexualisation in music, movies, everywhere. However it didnt bother me. Then one day I was very scared of my own intrusive thoughts of harming my own family. I was in panic. I was so anxious. I to start masturbating in order to forget my intrusive thoughts. Bigggg mistake. I regreted it but then I became addicted . And Im still a teenager. The funny thing is (its shameful but ) that one day I was soooo desperate I watched a video of spiders fucking a girl and spiders are my phobia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At this point I thought I'm doomed to go and burn in hell. I just masturbated and after that I am writing this because I really want to stop being addicted. I tried reading a book , doing things to forget but it didnt work...! What do you advice? I really need advice cause internet hasnt been helping . I neeed heeeeeeeelp.