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Here I am once again

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by itsMiles, Apr 12, 2016.

  1. itsMiles

    itsMiles Fapstronaut

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    Well, it has been 6 months since I have last been on here. A lot has happened in that 6 months, but I have yet to get over my porn addiction. I am basically here once again because I am pissed off at myself. Despite knowing I really don't need to masturbate or watch porn I of course still do it. I 100% realize it is wrong and I could become a much better person if I would just stop. But I don't. I continue to just sit in my room all damn day and stare at my phone for hours on end then masturbate to some stupid video. And when I'm not sitting in my room all damn day I sit in the dark basement and play xbox for hours and completely neglect all my responsibilities. Then when it is time for me to get off I get into bed and lie to my girlfriend saying that I am "tired" when in reality I go and download a private browser and watch porn.

    And I really for some reason did not want to come back on here, but I am slowly starting to think maybe I actually need to. The reason I didn't come earlier is really simple. I realized I was screwing up so I disabled private browsing and the ability to clear my search history on my phone. When I did this, I closed my eyes, pushed random numbers in, and created a completely random passcode. For a while it worked until I started to panic. I downloaded a private browsing app on my phone, found a way around the adult content restriction, and continued to watch porn.

    So here I am, up to this point in my life I have become sick and tired of all of this stupid pornography. Because it is literally killing me. I completely neglect my health, my girlfriend, and my responsibilities. And I know that one of these days my addiction will come to light and it will bite me in the butt. So, I am making a personal commitment to come on this website every single night and write a daily post. And this time, I am going to stop.

    And to finish this off I just want to say sorry for any bad language I used.
     

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