CarlFriedman
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Hi, I'm Carl.
I'm a 21 yo male from Poland.
I've been cumming probably for the last 10 years almost every day. In my life, I tried to have sex 3 times - always ED. (I had a girlfriend for 2 weeks, and she dropped me because of it).
2 years ago I find out that PMO is fucking bad. I decided to quit.
Only using my willpower I quit for about 6 months. It was the best half of the year of my entire life! I fixed my grades, fixed my posture, quit drugs (bath salts, etc), alcohol, and cigarettes, and talked with a lot of people (It was something completely insane, normally I'm stressing af). A lot of girls were interested in me.
It seemed that everybody loved me whenever I went.
But after that 6 months, depression struck me. I've been having panic attacks all the time, constant fear/anxiety (24/7), and suicidal thoughts (i tried to commit suicide, but didn't succeed). To feel better I started using PMO again and developed fast food addiction.
I fucked my grades, and almost drop out of high school (only because teachers liked me, they let me graduate). I didn't try to pass the 'matura exam' (In Poland this is the exam needed to go to any university).
I get 10k $ from my father (for university) and spend everything on therapy, meds, etc. And none of that helped.
Eventually, I started to feel better. I used some inconvenient methods and I get rid of depression (for now, I hope it won't come back).
I want to get rid of PMO for good, it fucks my life. That 6 months was the best time of my entire life, and I want it to feel like that all the time.
Regards,
Carl
I'm a 21 yo male from Poland.
I've been cumming probably for the last 10 years almost every day. In my life, I tried to have sex 3 times - always ED. (I had a girlfriend for 2 weeks, and she dropped me because of it).
2 years ago I find out that PMO is fucking bad. I decided to quit.
Only using my willpower I quit for about 6 months. It was the best half of the year of my entire life! I fixed my grades, fixed my posture, quit drugs (bath salts, etc), alcohol, and cigarettes, and talked with a lot of people (It was something completely insane, normally I'm stressing af). A lot of girls were interested in me.
It seemed that everybody loved me whenever I went.
But after that 6 months, depression struck me. I've been having panic attacks all the time, constant fear/anxiety (24/7), and suicidal thoughts (i tried to commit suicide, but didn't succeed). To feel better I started using PMO again and developed fast food addiction.
I fucked my grades, and almost drop out of high school (only because teachers liked me, they let me graduate). I didn't try to pass the 'matura exam' (In Poland this is the exam needed to go to any university).
I get 10k $ from my father (for university) and spend everything on therapy, meds, etc. And none of that helped.
Eventually, I started to feel better. I used some inconvenient methods and I get rid of depression (for now, I hope it won't come back).
I want to get rid of PMO for good, it fucks my life. That 6 months was the best time of my entire life, and I want it to feel like that all the time.
Regards,
Carl
