Actually I`ve been watching some jap picking up amateur porn but mostly fast forwarding past the porn bit to check out out the conversations. (bizarre, but happy not to be mainly interested in the visual). I`ve been mostly tempted in the mornings after I wake up tent pole style and if I get a break in the middle of the day, mainly so I can take a nap (not sleeping well atm).
Otherwise some really worrying tendencies. Since the wife isn`t co-operating usually I would empty myself and try not to let it bother me too much. However since I blocked one avenue of relief only one other suggests itself and I find myself going out of my way (unconsciously) to attract alternative attention with quite a bit of success (not that it isn`t good for my ego, and probably explains my previously mentioned language lessons).
Still It`s not something I really want to follow through with so I`m sort of hoping the dead period will give me a break from worrying about this.