Here we are...

Ok so... Regular 18 yo male, watching soft P since 2014 once a day plus MO, specially at night, more likely during stressful conditions. No active sexual life yet, likely to start kinda soon

Since the beginning I knew this PMO issue could be bad at some point, however it never escalated to bizarre things (rape, violence... makes me sick) because I could get the same arousal with every video if it was within "normal" standards. I convinced myself this wasn't so wrong as long as it didn't interfere with my normal activities. Big mistake.

Years went on and PMO was a way for me to get a quick dopamine rush and escape stress and loneliness, kinda imagining what it is like to be with a real sexual partner (it never happened btw lol). I never felt like increasing the duration or frecuency of the sessions... that daily five-minute session of softcore P while MO was more than enough, but I've been lying to myself.

So my PMO symptoms resulting from this issue are related to my arousal sensitivity (does that term exist? xD) the point is I get hard when hearing moans or sex related noises in almost every situation. Also I feel like getting hard when a girl is touching me for too long or having an intimate talk with her even if it is not related to sex at all. Most of the time I don't get totally hard but is uncomfortable af (and can get me into trouble too :/).

Aside from that, other great issue is social anxiety and lack of confidence. I've been working on that and seen some progress over the years yet there's always been something keeping me from overcoming these problems. Also I've lost the capacity of enjoying many things I did like (exercise, reading literature, playing music, going out...) so I became an apathetic sloth recently. Been reading about the negative effects of PMO in every aspect of life, neurochemistry of addictions, dopamine release and receptors, testosterone raising in seven-day semen retention and things like that, and I've drawn the conclusion PMO might be potentially causing these problems without me noticing.

Physically, fatigue has become a constant issue even though I've done my best to keep on with my life. Genital sensitivity is normal but I know it can change along with the erectile and ejaculatory function. However I won't know how damaged I truly am until being with a girl (hopefully I'm not that screwed) and that makes me pretty nervous. Don't get me wrong tho, I've got a lot of friends, good academic performance (fatigue and laziness are threatening this), good family life and a potential gf, yet I'm tired of this whole thing, I know my life can be better, and I don't need PMO to make it true.

I came across this website and I saw a golden opportunity to stop this and take the first steps. My addiction might not be that severe but it's still hard to stop having sexual thoughts and urges, although I'm willing to quit this thing for good. I know some things about the rebooting process and that's my goal, so I'm setting an inicial 30-days no PMO challenge. I have some habits that might help and a lot of motivation now, however don't want to relapse because of some horny thoughts. Trying to stay away from that (no sexy images in social media, erotic stories etc...) yet some advice and motivation would come in handy for a noob like me ;D

Wish you a wonderful day/night!
Starting with day 1...