Hey, I’m joining after a pretty bad relapse. I was convinced I could do this alone for a few months now and had a good week here and there but I obviously need the help of others.
I’m in a relationship. A serious one going a few years now and some how Iv avoided her learning about my addiction but it’s hurting our sex life. My problem started years ago like decades at this point. I was a heavy kid very depressed how I stated specifically I’m not sure but I was under the impression that I’d be alone forever.
I used this as an excuse. For a very long time until about 3 years ago I was doing it almost 3-4 times a day to the point where it basically took over my life. I was missing family parties and trips just for the opportunity.
It needs to End I have to stop some How this girl hasn’t left me, she’s been so patient she hasn’t even brought up that it’s almost damn near impossible for me to get it up in the bed room. I don’t know how I landed her. I need to be free of this for her for me for my actual productive passions. I can’t even sit down and play video games with coworkers because I’d rather rush home and fap instead of popping on to PlayStation for an hour.
I’m not religious and I’d rather no one try and convert me I had that conversation with myself a long time ago. But I’m not hostile to those that are, we’re all human and I welcome everyone.
My plan it to come on here everyday after work, I’m alone at home for a few hours and I need to remind myself that a relapse is no longer acceptable. This is totally messing with my life and even how I think.
I’m in a relationship. A serious one going a few years now and some how Iv avoided her learning about my addiction but it’s hurting our sex life. My problem started years ago like decades at this point. I was a heavy kid very depressed how I stated specifically I’m not sure but I was under the impression that I’d be alone forever.
I used this as an excuse. For a very long time until about 3 years ago I was doing it almost 3-4 times a day to the point where it basically took over my life. I was missing family parties and trips just for the opportunity.
It needs to End I have to stop some How this girl hasn’t left me, she’s been so patient she hasn’t even brought up that it’s almost damn near impossible for me to get it up in the bed room. I don’t know how I landed her. I need to be free of this for her for me for my actual productive passions. I can’t even sit down and play video games with coworkers because I’d rather rush home and fap instead of popping on to PlayStation for an hour.
I’m not religious and I’d rather no one try and convert me I had that conversation with myself a long time ago. But I’m not hostile to those that are, we’re all human and I welcome everyone.
My plan it to come on here everyday after work, I’m alone at home for a few hours and I need to remind myself that a relapse is no longer acceptable. This is totally messing with my life and even how I think.