So that's happened quite some times for the last years. Suddenly reality is there again. I already accustomed to know that happens when I breathe in even a single blow so I don't panic so much, but I suddenly realize that how I live is not nearly good or happy or pleasant and I give up, and stuff around me just feel like they were when I was a child or something. I can hear and see and understand, I feel like alive for some minutes, and then I'm back to my "logical" life sorta speaking. Everything becomes planned, every feeling is then but a repetition or just a thought. I don't laugh honestly anymore. A mask covers me again. Anyone who could tell me what the F happens here would really help. But I will probably not read any articles or chemical talk since I am already full of information screwing up my head day in and day out. I am not an habitual pot smoker. Last time could have easily been more than one year ago.