Hey There fellow Fapstronauts

Hey Guys. Mobcy here, 24 living somewhere in the middle east.

Im a Medical Student so im basically surrounded by negative vibes of books and exam strees. Currently single. I have first discovered M at the age of 13.I did it without watching P. Watched my first ever P at the age of 15 and ever since PMO became a part of my life or lets be more frank, my sexual life.

Whenever i am bored i watch P. Whenever I struggle to sleep i watch P. Whenever i feel helpless and unable to fight back i just do it.... PMO. I used to fap with an average of 3-4 time a week.

I do feel that PMO made me more negative, i would say most of me being negative is mainly due to the fact that i am too realistic and the current situations of the country where I live make it way worse. Terrible financial situations and a sexless life being 24 and still a virgin makes me sad.

I do as well feel that PMO made lose some of my intellectual abilities being somehow absent minded or lost or lets say

I do want to mention that I have an very high sex drive. I do live in a Muslim country so pretty much dating or having sex with a partner without marriage is absolutely impossible.

I rebooted exactly 9 days ago and i am struggling a little bit, i get awkward boners , my brain needs dopamine from PMO most of the time.

My longest ever run was a little bit over a month and back then i used to celebrate by PMO. My latest run was almost 17 days and i relapsed which was exactly 3 weeks ago.

I do need help from people who live in the same circumstances where sex is not abundant and with financial difficulties. I know it sounds insane BUT I DESPERATELY NEED HELP.

I need to discover the old me that I've lost ever since i was 13