Hi everyone im just another addict!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by socuzuf, Nov 20, 2018.

  1. socuzuf

    socuzuf Fapstronaut

    Hello guys hope you are doing great, im socuzuf just another orgasm or porn carving beast. i had a very wired problematic sexual history before porn i don't know if its because my curiosity or im a born pervert or its just memory that remember all those wired childhood things. im now 23 addict for 4 years; consider myself straight but do anything to get off any experiment you name it, does not involve other people or living things , no girlfriend, never kissed virgin; hardly can manage 2day without porn.
    Viewer discretion im gonna put some hardly sallow truth about my life even i get shock and freeze in shame or guilt. Even as i recall it now im getting chill;
    First my mum; when i was four or five years old i still remember tying feel what she got down there while she slept, after 1-2 minutes she woke up and asked me wtf i was doing; told me to never do it again. i guess it's was just a curiosity

    A guy; at that time i heard a thing about rubbing two genitalia so i tried and happed nothing so we quit; and moved on i was 5

    First Girl; it was a playmate saw her genitalia; play with it a bit happened twice.

    A guy; i was 14 and we would experiment with each other it happened 5-6 times; he actually encouraged me saying that it fell real good; i already watched my first porn; discovered orgasm long ago and the porn was hardcore threesome so i figured out what to do; already seen them getting pleased so i tried same stuff usually mutual masturbation the best he take my dik in his mouth and sucked and i did the same for him. ended with getting him caught to my parents that's end still hunt me and make sure these never happened.

    The older women; i was 15 i asked that older women to watch her genitalia; she agreed to well i kind of forced her it happened 3-4 times one day forcefully tried to have sex with her but thank god didn't happened; after that i really broke down about thinking wtf i just did. thankfully it stopped. for that i hope she forgive me

    after that i was pretty clean about ethics. only masturbation 2-3 times a day happened for 3 years. tried to get a girl but i was too shy for them. Now finally i was 18 had a smartphone with internet so i search the fuck out of internet for porn and porn stories; i usually get em and jack off every single day also quite later i got my first pc and a friend to supply HD porns; i usually watch them in night and delete it later on same day. After 2 years i got my own broadband and unlimited porn; first it was nothing matter only naked female body then soon it became hardcore, gangbang stuff, deep throat stuff and more sick stuff; i realized this problematic porn and stopped it for few days but then i failed at college and it became a full time thing soon i get my hand on these incest porn; then got into transgender porn and fantasized getting fucked by them while i literally fingered my own ass to get a hands free prostrate orgasm which i never really got now i recently got disenchantment from it.

    I tied nofap for couple of times but didn't know it's called nofap had few sucess, 7, 31, 21, day. fuck i finally got rid of these stuffs getting carving again now but that's not gonna happen.
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  2. Septimus

    Septimus Fapstronaut

    Welcome! I'm glad you're here. I hope you keep coming back. Invest the time in THIS site that you otherwise would spend searching for porn. It will pay off.
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  3. socuzuf

    socuzuf Fapstronaut

    Im planning to do this..

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