Hi I am a new member here is my story.

Hello My name is Tom.

I am 26 years old and I live in the UK I am a plumber and hold a full time job. I have a serious Financial, mind and social life destroying addiction to porn and sex.

For as long as i could remember .. probably when I was 13 i first noticed I was quite into the idea of sex .. my first experience of fapping was over a girl at school and when I finally climaxed it was the best thing I could have ever felt at the time. And so it continued .. and grew and grew and is now a monster in my life I feel I cannot control.

It controls every aspect of my being. From how I sleep to the time I arrive at work to my friendships, to what I spend my money on, to how I watch TV and films or think and act at work. My brain is constantly hitting a vibe that when triggered needs me to masturbate. I have lost good friends to my behavior and spent thousands on the internet. My current usage started out with cam sites .. Privatefeeds was the first I remained a guest never spending money. I moved to MFC ( myfreecams) a few years ago and remained a guest there for a good few years always spying, but never paying ( freeloading they call it ) This was until early this year when I took the plunge and signed up.

Within 5 weeks I had spent over £3000+ on the site .. tipping small and large amounts to see girls do the most perverse things I'd want them to do. I wake up and it is straight to MFC.. but it is not limited to their either the standard sites are used also...

- Pornhub
- Xvideos
- RedTube

You name it I've probably been there and fapped to it. And a few weeks ago I signed up to yet another cam site Chaturbate and last night I tipped my first amount over £100 in 1 night for a model. And so the cycle continues for me everyday and every time I grow a little less inside because of it. I wake up it is the first thing I have to deal with. I have lost count the amount of times I have been late to work because I have had to fap. I get home .. I deal with it again a good 3 or 4 times a day.

This year has also come to a point in the sense I have hit a tipping point. Due to being alone since I was 16 ( my last proper relationship) I took the dive and finally started looking into escorts .. I have visited 3 this year so far and all 3 experiences being a complete let down from what I expected after my years of porn viewing but also very costly to my bank too but the urge is always their.

I am here for help and to recover from years of abuse of the internet. It has in turn lost me good friends women .. who wanted to commit to more but all I was after was their body. I have hassled for photos, videos, naughty audio messages and it has cost me a chance to settle down like normal people do which plays on my mind every day.

I have a serious problem and I need help and I hope someone here can help me. I am tired of the direct debits being missed. The excuses I give to my boss.. the women I could have had a good life with and the false sense of " love" you get from cam models who only care for your money all for those few seconds of pleasure.. that get less until I search for more perverse things.

I am scared it will grow into someone I could no longer stop and could destroy my very life but I want to change and so this is my story .. My name is Tom and I am a serious sex and porn addict.