=] Hi

Hi all. I decided to join Nofap because I, like yahll, am ready to partake in the ultimate challenge =]

I've been sexually active since I was very young, since I can remember, but I never fapped as that was foreign. Then one day my cousin was like (You dont fap?!) and I was like "WHAT?! NO! Why would I?). . . . She said she did, so I thought I must be fuckin up. So I did and I was like woah. Shortly after in school I had a couple peers talkin bout porn and. . .fapping. Again I was like. . .?PoRn? So I went home and used tht computer for, well, you know. Ever since then, I was hooked. Now it was fine it started slow, got more into it at times. Then around high school I began to become more knowledgable about the world and how deceiving it can be. By then it was like everybody does it, so its normal, then doctors said it was normal so I'm like"OOO ok, well shit, here we go then!" But yeah like got more knowledgable and was like "Wait this isnt right." So I researched why it would be bad, which not a lot came up. Then I started getting heavier into life and truths and discovered the value of what I was just pouring out of my body. . . .and why? for what? To get off? by myself? and a computer? Something was definately not right. things started making sense, fapping wasnt soo good anymore. Watched the episode of futurama with Fry and Lisa Luu, the robot. Was like yeah dude its gonna be like that if everyone becomes addicted to P.


Then my hair started falling out, which my dad said it would, but i dont believe deterioration just happens willy nilly, and came across the theory that excessive fapping can cause or potentiate baldness. I was like "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" But it wasnt happening at an alarming rate so i though "meehh".
But it continued, and so did my research. Old and bald and tired, became the result in my head if I were to continue the Fapping. And I mean It was like i was just givin away my life energy ya kno? So I started making mental notes "This is bad" but still wouldnt stop. If I was bored at night, couldnt sleep, bored in the day, down a bit, or just wanted some.
I had problems with sexual relationships, unless Id had a past with them. But Id have sex with people i didnt even want to if they had porn on. Then never got to try a lil of what i always wanted because I searched for it in P. LAME. Soo now I'm in my twenties and I have a pretty fucked up hair line, wanna stop the P to see if it helps me and gives me more strength. I also want to make love with my girl without O as soon as she makes a sound. I used to be able to have sex for hours.


Another thing is that in the 10-11 years of watching P(OMG ITS BEEN THAT LONG,SERIOSULY HADNT THOUGHT ABOUT IT TIL NOW WTF!). . . .=[. . .I've seen some pretty messed up stuff. Like idk what I havnt seen, seriously like its got to be some pretty specialized crap for me to have not seen it. Its messed me up mentally as I have suffered with thoughts of attatching those experiences with myself, which is absurd but still happens. Like"Maybe they know I saw that" or "Maybe they know Im like that. . .Wait I'm not like that wtf" kinda stuff. I've been dealing with it very nicely as of lately, and becoming more confident in knowing that I'm not a sick fuck =] thank yahll. I dont like the P, and I dont like what its doing to people, and I especially dont like that my family(humans) are being used to feed sickness. Thought about it one day, and its gonna sound really bad and some might not like me saying this especially on here(but this is why were here because we want better for all) Whats the karma of taking pleasure and delight in the sexual exploitation of your brothers and sisters? If you had a child and they had millions of people watching them do dirty stuff all day O_O. And you know thats somebodies MAMA! These are our people who we are using to basically kill ourselves. Most people in the P industry are hurting and are wounded in one way or another, so they are used for THAT, and instead of standing up and speaking out against it, we sit there in solitude(not always) and Fap away our problems.
I just cant do it anymore, It's wrong. I dont care what people may say. If we we were all heroin addicts they'd have a doctor tellin us it prevents foot cancer, oh and that its natural.
So, with the help of all the awesome humans on here(thanks a lot yahll), I am ready for the ultimate challenge!


O O O and its been 2 days and 21 hours since I fapped according to my PMO tracka!