My brain, sexual arousal and or sexuality are completely fucked. I'm one of these dudes who are considered straight and have and always have had sexual attraction and arousal to women, but has a disproportionate amount of arousal for trans porn , either through porn escalation or sexuality. If it's sexuality then I'm fucked, because I'm not into males that is absolutely certain, and I would never get with a trans because they repulse me, when I watch porn it's a dominant role I don't want to be touched or have anything to do with that area. Infact I probably wouldn't even be able to fuck them the reality would turn my stomach . So I don't really know what this is. It's been a while since I've been with any girls, and I think I've wired my brain to pixels, to visuals and not real life stimulation. I don't get hard watching trans it's all manual and it's either anxiety or taboo that gets me hard, but I will get hard unaided watching women . Regular porn does pretty much fuck all now , the guy doesn't do anything for me and I'm not into dudes. It's always been the female enjoying a dick, usually because I was having sex etc it was something you can relate to and it's a turn on. If you haven't had sex in quite a while memories fade. And it's just pixels eventually. I still get aroused by girls and regular porn , but I think my libido is bored.because it's been longterm visual not real, you watch cam girls and the pace they take it very slow so you can lose your hard on , I watched porn for a good 18 years and was always rock hard . Wtf knows , brain changes. Anyway I've escalated to trans porn , either escalation , conditioning or part of sexuality I don't know, Considering doing NoFap and possibly hiring an escort which I've never done before , to know for sure if pied, escalation is all porn related I get aroused and hard unaided watching cam girls but because it's been so long and porn is boring now it doesn't fully materialise easily the way it would when you are actually with a girl, I've never had a problem getting hard with girls, so I don't really know wtf is going on.