Hit rockbottom

Today I hit rockbottom. I've reached a level of escalation that I wish I had never even gotten close, and that I won't talk about. I feel demotivated because I've been trying to kick this habit for months and I have not been able to stay away from it for more than 2 weeks at a time. However at the same time I know that I will never give up. I need to fight now stronger than ever and dig myself out of this pit of anger, depression and despair. Today might have been a defeat, but there won't be no more. My name is _ and i don't masturbate. My name is _ and I don't watch porn.