Hi,
OK straight to the point. I set a goal to complete 30 days of nofap and so far so good. I'm on day 17.. so I feel pretty great. I don't think I've cheated yet but I'm not gonna lie either.. I had played with myself a bit but not to the point where I bust a nut.. I think following through the entire thing is masturbating or to completion in other words.
Anyways I also suffer from HOCD and this shit fucking sucks.. and not masturbating to porn to reassure my sexuality fuckin kills bro.. it comes and it goes but right now I've been having episodes of it. As I'm writing my brain is trying to tell me abunch of gay shit (not in offense to anyone) and it just sucks..
A bit about me me and my sexuality and my I guess addiction to porn. I've ALWAYS loved women .. I can't stand them at times but I'm fucking crazy about them. Each time I see a young, mature or sexy ass milf my engage system turn on and I wanna try and hit on them. Its what I naturally like to.. but since I have a gf now and I wanna practice something other than cheating (I've always had my side pieces) it kills me not to go and approach but I know it's for auch higher benefit. I can get really deep into details about what I like and love to do with women but my HOCD is fucking acting up.. so I rather not address it.
My addiction: long story short porn has helped me in the past and I used it for depression.. it did what it did for good and the bad but I'm afraid that now after so many years.. I won't be normal anymore and it scares me. It also fucks me up in my HOCD because I used to use it to reassure myself that I am not gay. Without it I feel like I'm pretending to be straight but deep down in my heart I know that I am..
So what I'm asking is can someone help me out to figure out how long it takes to be normal after addiction to porn..?
Does anyone else suffer from HOCD like me and help me out how to o welcome this..?
My addiction also got to the point of where I would watch zoo porn... Thank god I really had to zone in on it and back that shit down cause I felt disgust after.. then to I guess.. cure my fantasy about being with other sexy ass fucking women I started watching incest toon porn. Not because I wanna do my family members.. hell no..! I can't imagine ever doing that.. eww.. but because I've had sex with so many older chicks the sex is like 40x better and these fuckin toons are hot ass fuck..
I really don't know what question I'm asking ... But I hope I can get some help from you guys. I need some help.. I don't wanna feel like this anymore. Can someone shed some light of hope..?
OK straight to the point. I set a goal to complete 30 days of nofap and so far so good. I'm on day 17.. so I feel pretty great. I don't think I've cheated yet but I'm not gonna lie either.. I had played with myself a bit but not to the point where I bust a nut.. I think following through the entire thing is masturbating or to completion in other words.
Anyways I also suffer from HOCD and this shit fucking sucks.. and not masturbating to porn to reassure my sexuality fuckin kills bro.. it comes and it goes but right now I've been having episodes of it. As I'm writing my brain is trying to tell me abunch of gay shit (not in offense to anyone) and it just sucks..
A bit about me me and my sexuality and my I guess addiction to porn. I've ALWAYS loved women .. I can't stand them at times but I'm fucking crazy about them. Each time I see a young, mature or sexy ass milf my engage system turn on and I wanna try and hit on them. Its what I naturally like to.. but since I have a gf now and I wanna practice something other than cheating (I've always had my side pieces) it kills me not to go and approach but I know it's for auch higher benefit. I can get really deep into details about what I like and love to do with women but my HOCD is fucking acting up.. so I rather not address it.
My addiction: long story short porn has helped me in the past and I used it for depression.. it did what it did for good and the bad but I'm afraid that now after so many years.. I won't be normal anymore and it scares me. It also fucks me up in my HOCD because I used to use it to reassure myself that I am not gay. Without it I feel like I'm pretending to be straight but deep down in my heart I know that I am..
So what I'm asking is can someone help me out to figure out how long it takes to be normal after addiction to porn..?
Does anyone else suffer from HOCD like me and help me out how to o welcome this..?
My addiction also got to the point of where I would watch zoo porn... Thank god I really had to zone in on it and back that shit down cause I felt disgust after.. then to I guess.. cure my fantasy about being with other sexy ass fucking women I started watching incest toon porn. Not because I wanna do my family members.. hell no..! I can't imagine ever doing that.. eww.. but because I've had sex with so many older chicks the sex is like 40x better and these fuckin toons are hot ass fuck..
I really don't know what question I'm asking ... But I hope I can get some help from you guys. I need some help.. I don't wanna feel like this anymore. Can someone shed some light of hope..?