Hocd and porn addiction

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Jan 30, 2020.

  1. I have been suffering from what I think is hocd since August 2019. Lately I have started to get homosexual urges I even tried to suck my own. I even went further and watched gay porn, but no matter what I don’t get hard. Will these urges fade away and what do they mean?
     
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  2. juniormelville

    juniormelville Fapstronaut

    Can you tell us a bit more about your background and why you're here? My initial thought, seeing as you're here and that presumably means you have a problem with porn, is that you will need to complete your reboot before you know what is happening with your sexuality. If you're a porn addict, your nervous system will be in total chaos and confusion. Don't think about it too much. Just get on with your recovery. Take your life focus away from sex for a while.
     
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  3. It's natural. Porn is being more and more addictive for porn viewers.
    The addiction leads you to search for more arousing, then you find the solution in watching gay sex. The long story after starts from here.
    We' re humans, we can't expect the effects of watching gay porn in the future, especially if we are straight in the basis.
    The homosexual thoughts become compulsive, and it'd be hard to get rid of them.
    I have these thoughts like you, I've started pmo 13 days ago and it's going in the right way. The compulsive thoughts are becoming less and less. By doing PMO, I've the capability to analyze these thoughts and realize that they are harmful to me and my future.
    My body strength and power is better now! I'm working and studying more! I'm satisfied with doing the pmo challenge!
    My advice for you is to keep going : Go for it :)
     
  4. Idk what’s happening with me. This hocd thing started in August. I get gay thoughts, but whenever I try to watch gay porn it doesn’t turn me on whatsoever. But then y do I experience false gay urges? Anyways, before hocd I was undoubtedly straight.
     
  5. Just accept these thoughts during your pmo, they'll appear from your deep subconscious mind up to the surface, accept them and they'll go away. Trust me you have the key in your hand, the only thing to do is to not watch porn anymore. Because in reality porn is the false thought even if it was straight or homosexual. Secondly you've to never put your hand on your dick when you're alone. I think the main trigger for masturbation is your hand. Be aware of your thoughts, and you'll get the ability to control yourself.
     
  6. It seems that you don’t understand me. I get gay thoughts which don’t turn me on, but make me doubt my sexuality. I wonder how I could get rid of them and get my life back to normal.
     
  7. juniormelville

    juniormelville Fapstronaut

    Abstain from all kinds of sexual stimulation including fantasy, and stop thinking about it. You can't solve this problem by thinking. Concentrate on something else in your life, preferably physical and social activity.
     
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  8. StonePlacidity

    StonePlacidity Fapstronaut

    Yeah, I've also done it, but my fatass wouldn't allow it lol:confused:

    Well if the urges die down when you ejaculate, you are not gay. You are just bamboozled by dopamine escalation. This is quite common as people seek novelty in porn constantly. Nofap will cure it, I promise.
     
  9. Suk

    Suk Fapstronaut

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    Suffered through this, on the first month of my NoFap i had a wet dream where i was having sex with men. I ejaculated in my dream and woke up in horror. So we always remember bad dreams or dreams which we suddenly wake up from. I'm completely straight so this was a nightmare for me. I woke up panting but then i saw i came in my pants. This made me doubt my sexuality as i had PIED. I didn't let it escalate a bit and just stopped thinking about it. It's your brain trying to trick you to masturbate and get that shot of dopamine. Since i was scared that I'm turning gay, i would check by PMOing so the brain would get it's hit of dopamine. There are a lot of tricks your mind will play on you but don't let it trick you, just don't PMO. Eventually these urges would die as you enter flatline.
     
  10. Funny enough I cannot get turned on by a man
     
  11. Shaun Scott

    Shaun Scott Fapstronaut

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    I’ve been a member for quite some time, and have started and stopped a few times for various reasons, with different levels of success. While I’m rebooting again now, about 2 weeks in. I was able to change my thoughts and urges once I better understood what was happening. Yes, I also had gay thoughts BUT was not turned on by anything gay. The problem is, that watching porn is not natural. You’re essentially watching another man have sex with a woman. You’re conditioning your body to be stimulated not by the woman, but by watching. I read plenty of posts on this. Use this as motivation to stop, and make a hard rule that you will stay away from any genre of porn that encourages this!

    stay strong, stay active. Reach out to people or the group if you need to speak.
     
  12. Men don’t turn me on either
     

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