HOCD help

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by VeryUnderstanding, Mar 2, 2016.

  1. VeryUnderstanding

    VeryUnderstanding Fapstronaut

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    Hey all i dont know if im the only one it happens to but its as if there another me talking to another me in my head like one me says gay intrusive things and the real me fighting back against them it's like im having a conversation with another me in my brain?

    Not entirely sure if its another me but it deffinatly is like s
    Another voice and i are having a battle
     
  2. IGY

    IGY Guest

    I don't know if this is the correct phrase, but it is what I would call your 'internal dialogue'. Have you researched HOCD, especially on http://www.yourbrainonporn.com - the website which gives scientific reasons for this phenomena? What you will find reassuring is that those with this condition are not gay. However, porn has caused these accusing issues to be raised, which is clearly distressing to you. You describe it as a battle and I am sure it must be.

    Completing the NoFap challenge will remedy it. So, don't lose heart @Confusedman, you won't be a confused man forever.
     
  3. Purity of Speech

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    Your very asking this question here is already a good step to make that go away as these kinds of conflicting voices tend to feed on shame and secrecy.
    Understand that a large amount of interest in homosexuality is starting from heightened sexual needs. If your needs go down, this latent aspect of (y)ourselves tends to retreat and wither.
    One tipp: don't fight it too hard as that may make it more tenacious. Better to distract yourself with wholesome activities and be like 'sorry, but I don't have time for you right now' or just roll your eyes or make fun of it.
     
  4. VeryUnderstanding

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    Thank the both of you im really seeking some answers here i want to be straight but my brain is not letting me this internal dialouge is like a little demon making my life hell hes telling me things that discomfort me im always fightning him day in day out his a little pest....i dont want to think they way i do and if these thoughts were happy thoughts or just clear signs of being gay then i dont think i would be at discomfort like the way i am day 2 day they are not happy thoughts at all somedays when i dont feel these thoughts im very very happy its as if im so happy that i finally think im straight for the day and the next day or days after gay thoughts return and im sad....again i haven't pm'ed for 11 days but for the past 3 days i haven't pmo'ed i still feel abit the same abit different tho but my erections with my girlfriend for the period in the 11days were so much better i was actually relieved but my thought process and thinking of women give little erections i always talk to myself and say the words come on i know your in the somewhere!!! While thinking about women
     
  5. Purity of Speech

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    It's not quite the same but I really liked this TED talk about a woman dealing with the voices in her head.
    I'd recommend being a little playful with those thoughts, trying one approach one time and something different a little after. Her strategy of befriending and listening to them, perhaps a little bit like to a whining child, takes a lot of their rebellious power out of them.
    A friend was quite successful with asking them the question: 'But you know that you're going to die, right?' That really shut them up... For a while, though, of course. They'll be a little bit around until you have really matured into something quite different. Then, they are just a funny story to tell your grandchildren...
     
  6. VeryUnderstanding

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    Thanks blixer great help ive tryd imagining it as a little monster before bed and putting him in a cage and locking him there and tormenting him hut he came back the next day ill try different aproaches
     
  7. Purity of Speech

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    Yes, great. The main principle is that this thing is not you and it doesn't have any real power over you...
    What are monsters actually doing in the day time? They're probably sleeping because they are tired... :)
     
  8. VeryUnderstanding

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    Its actually as if his playing allday with me and after work in the afternoon hes calming down but ill still put him in a cage before bed
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  9. iRebootMyself

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    I suggest to search the web for "ERP treatment for hocd" if you don't like to go see a therapist, but finding a good therapist would be great...
    For me, I haven't seen a therapist because I didn't like the idea, I semi controlled HOCD demons, it was hell at first, but I did it anyway, so don't lose yourself to your ideas and HOCD lies, HOCD is trying to force you to fall in its lies, so don't lose hope
     
  10. kriss93

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    Man I went through the what you wrote here and I can tell you that you are GOING TO overcome it, just be strong. I have made it, but unfortunately in my case I've got TGOCD instead of that, maybe it's because around a year ago I hooked up to shemale porn...and I can tell you that it is more "freakening" than HOCD because it messes with your whole identity, not just your orientation...:/ But I won't give up, I'm doing hard mode for 4 days now and I KNOW it will disappear...
     
  11. VeryUnderstanding

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    There was a hocd test online to check weither i have it as an ocd it said 1-3 answers yes no signs of ocd 3 -7 yes mild ocd 7+ yes high chance i ticked 21 boxes to yes....
     
  12. kriss93

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    I think you have done the same test what I have done too... (www.ocdla.com) I have similar results like yours. So I KNOW that you are going to overcome on it just STAY AWAY FROM PORN FULLY.

    In my case I hooked up sissy/tg porn and I "feel like a woman" and have "female thoughts" and I'm worrying if I'm a transgender but I had cut off porn 4 days now and hope it will disappears.... it's far worse than hocd, believe me, I know both of them. Let God be with us!
     
  13. VeryUnderstanding

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    Yeah man that test bro they are both equaully horrible things! Our sexual orientation is in danger nd thats what scares the shit out of us
     
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    Your're right but I'd rather be gay as a real man instead of being a woman....it's freakin' me out... I've lost all my attractions towards women, when I'm around women I feel like "I'm one of them" and female thoughts bombed my head....I don't want to be a woman, I want to be a real man again...:(
     

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