HOCD is killing me

Hi Rosh720! I think i had this. At times I'd get a really strong urge making me think I really, really want those types of compulsive behaviors. And yeah it almost overtook my mind to where it felt like it was really ME wanting that. But now that I look back I don't think it really was.

I think these things are like how Eckhart Tolle describes the "pain body". They are like little creatures that lay dormant within me and then wait to feed. Then they trick me into a PMO binge. Then I get a week or 2 clean because they are "digesting" the food. But when they get hungry again, here come the urges.

Its just a visualization or a concept but what it means to me is that if I don't "feed" them, they will begin to die, or go somewhere else for food. And when they realize they are almost dead or is time to find a new home, they put up the biggest fight, because they are hungriest. But if I just don't "feed" them, they will pass away or go somewhere else.

So basically when the urges get to be the worst that helps me hang in there.

 

Thanks for sharing.



(get it? because they are root vegetables!)

 

Thanks for that advice. It really hits home. i've also sort of thought this. I think it's true. Hopefully I'll remember to put that up on my wall so I can get a daily reminder when I need it.

 

LOL omg you're going to put my post on your wall? Haha I didn't think anyone would like any of my posts THAT much.

Well I hope it works for you Or if you don't put it up then I hope the idea just comes to your mind at the right moment.