HOCD, need help :(

Hi guys, I was wondering if there was anyone that could help me with my problems. Maybe I could PM you or something but I don't want to give too much details in here as I've just had a shitty day and I feel really self conscious of everything that's been going on. Been on nofap for 58 days and I feel like it's going to take considerably more than 3 months if I want this to trully go away. I mean this did improve, but I'm not satisfied with how much it did.
I'm a virgin, been struggling with this since I was a teen like 15 years old with gay fantasies and always hated it insanely. Back then I couldn't talk to anyone but I didn't feel bad bc women would still arouse me and I was comfortable with being bi bc I wouldn't have to act on it and could still get a girlfriend, but I've gotten to the point where naked girls won't arouse me AT ALL anymore. I mean, I feel aroused with girls in real life if I'm flirting with them, I love them, and even texting one that I was attracted to made me aroused but I'm so sure that if this crap isn't dealt with I won't be able to have pleasurable sex with a woman in the future and that I'll have to be with men that I've never desired before ;(.
Can any good soul here say anything to comfort me or talk to me privately? It's been a rough day...