HOCD - No anxiety anymore

Rule of thumb if you're attracted to guys through a screen then it's quite possibly porn messing with you. If you find guys attractive in real life then you are gay or bi.
Also I feel like you might be torturing yourself a bit like this.

 

The thing about men and our penises... it's that you really shouldn't think too deeply about it. If you can get off to the stimulation of your hand, you can get off to anything. Think about it.

It's not who you are its who you want to become.
When you look at those guys, do you want to get down on one knee and devote your life to them? Do you want to have a biologically childless legacy? Do you really want these dudes? Or just the stimulation for your penis and the rush of the forbidden?

Just imagine one of those dudes coming up and giving you a hug from behind. If your automatic reaction is a cringe ur just not gay. Most men are not and it probably includes u if it gives u this much anxiety.

The thing about anxiety and stress is that it's actually a good thing. It's like standing at the edge of a cliff and becoming overwhelmed because your body and mind is telling you, you're in danger. Stop. Turn the other way. Without those functions we simply wouldn't survive as human beings. Start seeing that anxiety as a good thing instead of trying to make it disappear. Now don't sit in your anxiety and let it fester into something else. Identify the anxiety, what's giving you anxiety and why. You see a good looking man. Oh no, you think he's good looking, that must mean ur gay. No, you think he's good looking because he's good looking. Duh. and also learn to laugh at yourself. Actually think about how silly it is that your brain is overreacting to something like someone's looks.

I've struggled w what ur going thru for years. You're lucky to live in a time where you have access to resources and information and people like me whove been through it and can tell u that's it's okay. You'll get past it, no, you're not gay, and yes, porn has done a number on you. The farther away from it you get, the less you'll feel all this stress.

Breathe in. Out. And know this is not forever. Quit porn. Stop watching that gay shit or whatever that exposure stuff is and focus on you know WHAT'S REAL. Yes some guys are good looking... and? Okay? They're also awkward, smelly and annoying. Just like you. Lol. I'm joking. But at the same time I'm serious. You'll get over it trust me.

 

You want to kiss or have a relationship with a male? Or it's something else?