Hello, So to sum up, I watched a lot of shemale porn (and straight ofc). Last year I got HOCD because I suddendly had a fantasy of being the woman in porn. I struggle with HOCD so bad that it makes me question all my life and sexuality. Yesterday I was on google searching if watching shemale was gay. A fall on a video from a transwomen that said that watching shemale was not gay and in fact gay men are not attracted at all to transwomen, but to transmen. So I was like cool i'm not gay then. But then I imagined a transmen and i got aroused. WHAT THE FUCK ? I mean when I was younger I fell on a porn video where there was a transmen in it and I got so disgusted I almost vomit honestly. But now why do I get slightly aroused by that ? Does that mean I'm gay or it is just another escalation or some shit like this ? Or is it my HOCD ? Also I never had a single attraction/crush on men my whole life. It was always women.