I need some serious help right now. I am really hoping its HOCD that I have got because i hope to god i am not gay. I woke up this morning thinking i was extremely gay and i loved men, never happened like this before. Usually these thoughts are disgusting but it feels as if I want it and like it. I want it to go because I’m convinced I like men even though a man has never made me hard before like a girl does. I never got hard with gay porn or naked guy or anything. It only seems as if I might be attracted to their face. For example I love the show DR WHO but I keep thinking I am attracted to the actors when it deep down disgusts me. Can this happen. Is it false attraction. I hope this is seriously HOCD and not me being gay. When i was younger i always liked girls, searched things on the computer like “dove Cameron naked” etc. Never had an interest in guys. The thing that’s made it worse is my mum thought i would have been gay even though i have a girlfriend. I have quit porn and masturbation.