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Congrats, you're not gay! The only reason you watch gay porn is because that's how porn itself is designed (feel free to ask me if you want to know more about the design, it's dirty and you will really hate porn after you know it).

Hope this help, cheers!

 

Yes, abstaining will repair your brain. The brain repair will make you be smarter and more critical. The benefit will give you lots of attraction if you can use it correctly.

Your anxiety maybe caused by guilt for getting excited on gay porn. Honestly, it's quite hard to predict the root cause accurately, but try to abstain from PMO for 90 days. I hope that the abstain will help you a lot.

Cheers!

 

Sorry to know that! All I can told you is "Don't let your disability stop you to become a better men. Don't think much about other people with that normal body, you're yourself and you're special! Maybe it's true that you're disabled, but you can focus on your natural skill instead of sorrowing in sadness. There's must be something you can do better than anyone else! If don't, simply find it by doing anything you're interested in (say programming as example). Who knows it's maybe your true lifetime passion!"

I am also have an asthma which makes me physically weak. But, I never give up. I keep working out and exercising although my asthma will always try to stop me. My lungs isn't better that majority of people, but who care! I don't care and will exercising as well as workout until I can't do it anymore as doing that things make me happy and feeling like myself.

 

Based on your statement, you're gifted in common knowledge sector! You can easily be a master in public speaking! Your skill will also help you socialize a lot if you can use it correctly. You're gifted to be social master! Moreover, there's an coincidence, being a social master won't interfere with your disability! That's it, your true skill!

Now you maybe think "Meh, this skill sucks!". But before you conclude it, know this one secret:

In order to make people consider you smart, you don't need to know lots of math and whatever similar! All you need to do is to give them an excellent first impression!

That's why people call you smart! That's also the reason why politic figures look so great, although majority of them aren't as smart as you in reality!

Hope this help, cheers!