Holding Myself Accountable

Hi NF-community,


Last year I came across this page and found that I had an issue that the idea of NoFap could help me overcome. And so I started, PMO for 90 days, a cold reboot, that I failed at day 48 on my first attempt. However, I fought back. On my second attempt I already managed and after those 90 days I just kept going. I made it to approximately 110 to 120 days until I fell back again.
My initial idea was to go back to just never watching P again, whilst I would allow myself MO after the reboot... . Unfortunately - fail.

Now, I think I know what I did wrong. I had nobody whom I told about this and when I succeeded, there was no way to share my joy or sense of healing with anyone. (I had not joined the internet community by creating an account here, unfortunately.)

Finally, I am back and have started a PM challenge this time, where I am on day 11. Obviously, the aim is 120 days. Why not PMO?
Well, two reasons come to my mind. I am in no (sexual) relationship, so there is no technical difference for me. However, whilst on my last reboot I had to learn how to become sociable again, I can say that I am by now. Hence, not allowing M but O, i.e. having real sexual intercourse with a real human being, shall function as an incentive to overcome my sexual and relationship anxiety. Although it is highly unlikely that I will enter a relationship or even just a bedroom within the next months, just the thought of the theoretical option gives me perspective into the right direction.

This is my situation. Please wish me well.
I have already learned my personal lesson from NoFap, which in my personal experience is related (as is any addiction) to loneliness or isolation: Friends are the most important thing in the world.

Peace.

 

Hi,
thank you for the reply.
Current strategies:

• (learn to) play the Ukulele
• practice playing the drums
• go for a walk
• exercise (Calisthenics)
• read (usually on my eBook-reader)
• meet with friends
• call someone
• meditate
• stretch

Quite random stuff, but I enjoy it.